Regress in progress?

I don't believe that i am the only who "suffers" from this disease, "One step forward, two steps back". When we thought we have progressed in something but when you really scrutinize it, we are actually heading the unwanted direction. Somewhat of a Newton's third law of motion, "For every action there is an equal double and opposite reaction" :p

In work, you thought you have got a better job and begin liking what you do at first. When you really look at it down the road, it does not really feel so. One begins to wonder if he/she is really doing his/her job properly? Although what matters most is the end result, the things we have to go through to achieve the result might not be so glorious at all. I feel disillusioned by what i have to do to get through the day, my job description does not state that i must do harmful and/or take despicable (IMHO) actions to get what i need. Sometimes i fear that i may be stalked after office hours for what i have done.

In the country, the supposed progress that are claimed by the leaders are heading back to the stone age IMHO. 1Malaysia my ass, where is the supposed equality? the supposed 1 race? the supposed 1 united country? Racism, special quota allocation, various kinds of quarreling at all stages of society, supposed chosen leaders who have the mind worse off than uneducated barbarians.

In life, when you thought that you have done what is best but when looked upon, you have sinned beyond the limits of Hell. You do what you think is best, its wrong. You do what they want you do, its still wrong. You do what other people tells you to do, and its still fecking wrong. What the fuck is wrong??? I am sometimes at wit's end on this matter and oh yeah, if you don't do anything its DEFINITELY WRONG!

*Shakes head and pulling at his remaining hair*

Bad things happen when you talk about it ...

Based on my almost 3 decades of observations, bad things tend to happen when you talk about it. A sunny could turn out to be a rainy day when someone says that, "The worse that could happen would be to rain". There'd be a massive jam when you are already late for an important event. Your car would break down when you need it to go somewhere.

My old house was broken into right after a family friend claimed that our residential area was very safe. When you have plans to get something with the extra money which you have waited for all year long and then you are hit with a financial situation requiring you to ditch your year long plan ...

My was broken into 2 times and both times, the things stolen were not even half the cost for the repair on the damage done on the windows. The first time i lost an imitation Oakley sunglasses. This time i lost a can of money which also had some sweets in it.

I was just talking to the guard who used to guard the parking which i parked my car at inquiring why there are no more guards up there now. He told me that the contract for guarding of the parking floors have expired and not renewed and now he is hired to guard the shop floors. When i went to retrieve my car, it was just like everyday until my carpool colleague asked me a strange question, "Is this your car?". Only then i saw that there were stuff spilled all over the front passenger seat. Sigh ...

What's worse is that now is the rainy season and all the mechanic shops i went to told me that the supplier shops are closed and i can't get the repairs done for the night. What bad things can happen next? It started to rain, woot! Fortunately it was not raining cats and dogs else i'd be cursing in language that i know.

So if i do not want it to rain, i would not say anything about the weather. If i want Manchester United to win, i would not say that we would win. I almost always never make plans far ahead of time and promise that i would go because you never know what might happen at the last minute. I must refrain from more curiosity else it would get me into more bad luck.

Its November and its raining ...

I'll be honest with you, when RTM2 was not all patriotic and stuff, Guns N' Roses' November Rain was always aired but at that time i did not know the band Guns N' Roses. I just know that this song sounded nice and music video's story was great, of course the killer would be Slash during his solos.

*Head shaking as i enjoice this song over and over again*

Guns N' Roses - November Rain

When I look into your eyes
I can see a love restrained
But darlin' when I hold you
Don't you know I feel the same
'Cause nothin' lasts forever
And we both know hearts can change
And it's hard to hold a candle
In the cold November rain

We've been through this such a long long time
Just tryin' to kill the pain
But lovers always come and lovers always go
An no one's really sure who's lettin' go today
Walking away
If we could take the time to lay it on the line
I could rest my head
Just knowin' that you were mine
All mine

So if you want to love me
then darlin' don't refrain
Or I'll just end up walkin'
In the cold November rain

Do you need some time...on your own
Do you need some time...all alone
Everybody needs some time...on their own
Don't you know you need some time...all alone

I know it's hard to keep an open heart
When even friends seem out to harm you
But if you could heal a broken heart
Wouldn't time be out to charm you

Sometimes I need some time...on my own
Sometimes I need some time...all alone
Everybody needs some time...on their own
Don't you know you need some time...all alone

And when your fears subside
And shadows still remain, ohhh yeahhh
I know that you can love me
When there's no one left to blame
So never mind the darkness
We still can find a way
'Cause nothin' lasts forever
Even cold November rain

Don't ya think that you need somebody
Don't ya think that you need someone
Everybody needs somebody
You're not the only one
You're not the only one

Ah.... the memories of all the great Guns N' Roses songs *grins*

Lucky again ^_^

Today there was an event in the company whereby the HR would like to open a channel for a closer communication with the staff. Like any events there are prizes to be given away and some complimentary gifts if you can answer questions correctly.

To be eligible for the lucky draw, all you had to do was to collect a few stamps from the booths and drop it into the box before the draw. I did just that and walked around looking for freebies while waiting for the lucky draw.

The result was not too bad i would say. Got a valuable gift and won 1 of the 10 lucky draw prizes (winner number 8 if im not wrong XD) amongst other not so interesting complimentary gifts =D

Lucky draw prize of Jusco vouchers worth RM40

A Tupperware brand tupperware :p

U have been ACTIVATED XD

My U-Mobile number have finally been activated last week and quickly transfered to Hotlink :p All i wanted was the prefix number and of course the chosen number with my birthday in it. This evening i sent out more than 100 sms notifications to those in my phone book. Hopefully it covered everyone who is interested.

Tomorrow i will be officially using the 018 number :) Must be more careful when making calls now, its a prepaid and on my own tabs whereas the current line can be claimed from the company. Although it can be claimed i don't like the notion that i am not able to make full use of the quota and every month paying close to RM90 and using less than 1/3 of that amount.

With prepaid, i used to just use around RM60 for 2 months and sometimes even at that i am not able to use RM60 worth of calls or sms :p Although nowadays i make more calls via my mobile instead of using the office phone all the time, still i cannot reach the RM90 monthly quota.

The ulterior motive behind this move was not achieved again so unfortunately i have to deviate from the plan :( Alot of effort was done to try to move but luck do not seem to favour me so i am again stuck where i am. Sigh.

Update 26/10/2009 : KNNCCB, there is a hidden cost to this MNP shit, your credit cannot be transfered over and will be void! @)(#*&%_@$^&+_@)(*&^_@*$&^_(@$

"WAH, you look thinner liao!"

My colleagues from other floors whom i have not bumped into would mention this every time i bumped into them either on my way for meetings or going to another floor. Even my ex-boss also claimed that i looked thinner. I don't know how true is this because i really don't feel any thinner that i was when 6 months ago. Although my weight had supposed went down but when i see my belly its still the same size :(

Vendors whom i have dealt with in the past also claimed the same thing when they see me in meetings. I can't take them seriously as they would want to say only good things to maintain the relationship.

My female colleagues would also get the same kind of comments when vendors come and visit them. 1 of which is getting married soon and had been on a strict diet for like a year already, the other who just came back from Singapore after a major operation so no surprise on her part that she is skinnier as compared to 3 months ago.

Perhaps what is suggested by my colleague would quite logical whereby the team have been under stress due to lack of manpower and a power hungry boss trying to show "his" capability by giving the team more work which basically do not fall under our jurisdiction. Well he got his higher position and most of the team are now in limbo as the new management is quite clueless in the importance of our role.

In the end, i know that im lighter as the weighing machines do show that i have lost weight though not as much as i had wanted as per my wishlist but its a start :) Physical appearance wise, i don't think it has improved as the way i wanted it of which i do not expect to be having a six pack without really doing some targeted workouts in that area. Would be looking forward to a flatter tummy as the weight keeps on dropping :D

My very own HTC Touch 3G

After weeks of comparing, consideration and searching, i finally bought a HTC Touch 3G. Though not a completely new phone but it does have ample warranty left versus the price i paid :) Most would say that i got a bargain. It was within my set budget and the warranty left appealed to me so that's why its in my hands now XD

Though its not a so-called high end phone but its a whole lot different from my previous phones and sometimes i struggled to find or do what i wanted to. Since my colleague have 2 HTC 3G (1 for himself, the other for his "wife"), so being the n00b that i am, i requested help from him to get my phone up to speed with the good softwares and/or settings. But since everyone have their own preferences, i did my own customization after his efforts.

First hurdle was the contact list XD On my first day, i struggle to get past the first few contacts to find the person i wanted to call ... Would be very frustrating if it were an urgent or emergency. But hey im still finding my way around with this new phone.

The main reason that i got this phone was for the GPS, being clueless of locations especially those in PJ, it would be of great help to have some guidance if i did not do my research on the place i wanted to go. It can sometimes be such a hassle to ask others and what makes things worse is that i have not much info on the landmarks there and would be fully dependent on the person i ask for those clues to find the place.

With most of my friends owning a high tech gadget cum phone, i would like to join the group as well albeit not being too knowledgeable in this field. Well this is something which can be picked up so not much worries there.

I think i will need quite some time before i am able to fully grasp what i can or cannot do with this new phone :) For the time being, i am totally dependent on the people who own these kind of gadgets to guide me XD