Friday, November 28, 2008

What-Bug-Me Tag

The rules

  • List out 6 things that bug or annoy you.

  • Tag another 8 persons to do this.

  • Strictly no tagging back!


The list:

1) People who asks your opinion on things which they want to buy BUT in actual fact they have already made up their mind on which one they already want. So you end up looking like a bloody idiot with your valued and well thought opinion is treated like garbage chucked out even before it left your mind. IF YOU DON'T WANT TO LISTEN TO OTHER'S OPINION THEN DON'T FUCKING ASK FOR THEM!!!


2) Queue cutters especially when i had been at the end of the line from the beginning. Be it while im driving or buying something or lining up to get freebies :p


3) People who displays their high end gears and then complaining that they are broke and can't afford even higher end gears, all the while flashing that fancy high end gear in front of my goddamn eyes.


4) To be asked the same questions over and over and over again by different people. If i don't wanna answer then there is a fucking reason why i haven't do so. All shall be revealed in due time.


5) When you are in a rush to get somewhere, you will meet hurdles upon hurdles upon hurdles to reach there on time. Whatever that you do not wish to encounter will fucking happen just when you wished with all your might that it would not =_=


6) To be ignored or boycotted for reasons unknown.


7) Nobody ................ oops, list is not long enough to list out more what-bug-me things :(


Chain mails always end with me, so i guess im a killer for these kinda things. For those who are interested to rant out your list, please do so :)

Friday, November 21, 2008

I should be in Ipoh now BUT ..............................

SIGH............................................................................

I would really love to meet the leng lui friends of a leng lui of which a friend of mine is going to marry. The sister is very HOT too :(

I would really love to get drunk with a bunch of friends while having a great fun night with this going-to-be-not-so-bachelor friend :(

I would really love to go on a road trip with friends and chat up with nonsense while catching up on things during the period we did not go out for yamcha or dinner or lunch session.

I would really love to be part of a crazy team of heng dais to go raid the bride's house not to mention try to tackle some of the ji muis. :(

I would really love to get some great food lead by Ipoh locals namely the grandfather of the bride who was going to treat the heng dais. :(

SIGH............................................................................

Tuesday, November 18, 2008

Im not as schizophrenic as i thought i am

The other day when i went to the clinic and there was a long queue, i picked up an info book about schizophrenia, going through the symptoms mentioned in the book, there are some direct hits. Depression, talking to self (voices in head), always feeling of wanting to be alone, imagining alot of crazy things (good and bad), some form of Déjà vu and others. Result of a simple self diagnosis as per below.




You Are 40% Paranoid Schizophrenic



You're pretty grounded, though you have your occasional paranoid moments.

Just make sure to ignore those voices in your head!

Monday, November 17, 2008

Always on the wrong side of the fence

There have been many occasions where the verdict upon my head was the complete opposite of what i wanted to achieve. Sometimes i feel that im really rooted to the wrong side of the fence where everything which i do is wrong in society's eyes.

Why am so heartless to make my son have 1 parent only?
1) I really do not have a choice and to shoulder 2 person's role in my 2 shoulders are really taxing.
2) I have tried many ways to not let this happen but there really is no light at the end of the tunnel for the situation and anyways this tunnel is narrow that you can only move forward, there is just enough space for you pass though in a straight line at the moment.

Why don't you change job so that you can earn more?
1) Its not like i have not been trying, the salary offered are same or lower than my current one.
2) Perhaps you can really say that im pampered by the benefits from the bank, a hospital bill reminded of what i may have to fork out. So if i get a similar paying job without the benefits then its actually a downward move rather than lateral.

Why your driving so aggressive one?
1) Everyone have their own way of driving. You like people cutting your queue, your own fucking problem. I hate people cutting my queue ESPECIALLY when i have been following the queue from the end of it.
2) I don't really like to drive slow, that is why i got a manual car where i am more in control of what speed and pickup i want.
3) I signalled to turn and you should too especially at the Tesco and Telekom junction! Those who don't, gets a mlm from me.

Why you talk so direct one?
1) I believe i have always been like that, hence not winning me too many friends.
2) What is wrong about being truthful?

Why are you so strict with your son?
1) That was the way i was brought up and i find it to be effective and good
2) I have seen too many cases of pampering/spoiling until the children are useless. Yes, from my point of view they are entirely useless but for the people who are pampering/spoiling the children, they are angels. So in their minds, they should preach the same to other parents and the rest must follow, sounds very religious no?
3) Pampering/Spoiling parents who let their children run amok inside and/or outside the house is their own fucking problem, when the children get hurt, don't come crying to me with regrets. I never understand them, allowing/condoning the children play dangerously is accepted but preventing your children from getting hurt due to dangerous play methods is WRONG?!

Knowledge is power, NOT!
1) The factual things you learned/know are not liked.
2) Note to self : MUST shut the fuck up when others are talking about things which you are interested in so that they can talk untrue bull crap.

From boss : Please give me your opinion on .
1) I think all working people would know what is about to happen next, so just shut the fuck up so you don't get fucked up.
2) If whatever the fuck which are coming out of your mouth are not in line with the boss' thoughts then you better shut the fuck up.

At work.
1) Just mind your own fucking business, other units' work are theirs, you must not interfere even when its to help them.
2) If you don't report to the same boss, then you don't talk to each other unless you are friends.

Wah good lar you, get to buy cheap house by taking over your father's home loan.
1) He is over 60 already, he should not be working anymore to pay the loan.
2) Nobody else in my family is able to take on this loan, actually when i takeover, i will only manage to squeeze by only as well.
3) I want to live in a double storey-house, i wish to climb stairs and have more space in my room.

Wednesday, November 05, 2008

Why Why Why???

"Why" questions are very hard to answer IMHO. =_= but i have been getting alot of them recently.

Why do you look so tired?
Because i am seriously tired. I don't get enough sleep at night. Partially due to my son sleeping late and i usually only able to get some shut eyes after he is asleep. I occasionally wake up in the middle of night not due to nightmares but i would just wake up. Perhaps its because i am now more alone, not so warm and not so strong. Actually after the 5am gathering session, i did not get back to 80% until one day i could not take it anymore that i had to resort to a bottle of Brand's chicken essence to boost me back to >80%. Even on non working days i will not be able to sleep later than 9am.

Why do you look so stressed, why don't you take a leave from work?
There are many types of stress, i don't have any work stress to be honest since i have almost no workload. I do however have a very big worry which most people would face during these troubled times, financial woes. My calculator is giving out smoke already due to my many calculations, the thing which i dislike most to take into consideration, "IF" this/that were to happen then this/that would happen. Sigh..........

Why do you seem unhappy?
For those know of my recent predicament, this is already self explanatory. For those who don't know then just take the above woe as my answer.

Why are you fat, become like middle aged man liao?
Seriously i would like to know what to do as well, i don't eat much, my portion of the food is sometimes as little as those supposedly dieting girls. Who wants to go swimming? I am in need of a partner.

Why do you not drive to work?
Let's see, to fill up petrol a week vs fill up petrol per month? Hmmmmmm................... Easy choice if you ask me. Also i do not have to raise my blood pressure when stuck in jam. My bp is normal again, i don't want to be abnormal again.

Why so serious?
I had been serious almost all my life, i learned to open more up when i went to college. Without the comfort and protection of home, i found that there were alot of things i have to learn to be in society. The many kinds of people who have very different attitude, mentality, and etc.

Why do you not want to convince her to come back?
If you are the captain of the ship, a crew member who wants to go on to a different direction, would you turn your ship to scoop this crew member and sail her direction?

Monday, November 03, 2008

光良品冠 - 胡思乱想

Most japanese anime have good stories and include some interesting love dramas (yes, as you may have expected i just finished an anime series), most of the time not as dramatic as Hong Kong drama series but enough to make one think.

What should be expressed, cannot be expressed.
No matter how much you would really want to profess your feelings towards the other, you must not because like the 2 sides of a coin, there may be 2 very different outcomes. One can only dream for the best outcome but in real life, things do not turn out just like the way you wanted/dreamed/planned it. So you are left in an agonizing situation, to do or not to it? Being a not so positive person, i chose the latter, as i fear for the worst outcome. Which would hurt me more, to suffer in silence or to suffer another huge blow?

The song below, somewhat summarizes my confusion for the moment.

胡思乱想又过了一夜
思念的疑问并没有解决
我又胡乱想过了一夜
情感的东西 是否需要感觉
也许我不知道
我是真不明了
人对情感的渴求
是否那麽重要
也许我不知道
你那儿最好
让我情牵忘也忘不了
也许我不知道
你真的那麽好
我的思念你又明了多少
我胡思乱想
胡思乱想又过了一夜
思念的疑问并没有解决
我又胡乱想过了一夜
情感的东西 是否需要感觉
也许我不知道
我是真不明了
人对情感的渴求
是否那麽重要
也许我不知道
你那儿最好
让我情牵忘也忘不了
也许我不知道
你真的那麽好
我的思念你又明了多少
也许我不知道
你那儿最好
让我情牵忘也忘不了
也许我不知道
你真的那麽好
我的思念你又明了多少
也许我不知道
你那儿最好
让我情牵忘也忘不了
也许我不知道
你真的那麽好
我的思念你又明了多少
我胡思乱想
本歌词由网友十一郎提供

Note : As mentioned in an earlier post, i seemed to have lost my direction, however i do not have anymore feelings for her but am i forlorn until my mind is messed up with what i want or need?
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