Restoring and Jailbreaking my Ipad

Woke up in the morning to find that my Ipad is not accessible anymore because someone tried the password too many times. Doesn't matter who it is, the Ipad is locked and even when I did what it showed ie "Ipad is locked, connect to iTunes to unlock" it cannot be unlocked. So I had to do what I put off for quite some time already ie to upgrade. My Ipad was stuck in iOS 3+ since the day I got it.

Thankfully Google was a lot of help and I took my few minutes course but got too excited and made a mess. Could not find Installous (duh, the must have if you jailbreak) and again found the solution but overdid it. Added too many sources and slowed the damn thing down and every other thing which I wanted to install would require Installous to be removed =_=|||

In the end I could not take it anymore and re-did the everything, restore and upgrade. Thank goodness that I have a fast Internet connection else I would be stuck at the download firmware page for hours. Restore and upgrade was a pain but not something that is too different from flashing in Android. Lots of reboot and updating so you just have to wait it out.

Once the waiting is all over, I rebooted it once more just in case before I do the jailbreak using absinthe. This part was the easiest (the app only have 1 button to press) BUT you guessed it, more reboot and updating =_= You would think that after so many rounds of reboot, the bloody thing would be satisfied but you are in for a shock =D Cydia on first launch also requires reboot.

Learning from my earlier mistakes, I just added a couple of sources which I remember having before I encountered any issues. So before Installous is even on my mind, I needed to upgrade a couple of the apps which came with the jailbreak and you must be familiar with what is required by now ... After you installed Installous, you get to reboot some more =D

Thank heavens that you don't need to reboot the damn thing some more when installing games. But now I have to find back what I had before and try to get it all back. The hindsight of that issue was that I got someone to do the jailbreak for me before and did not bother to get to know what my friend helped to install. One thing I noticed in iOS 5.1.1 is that my Ipad is using up the juice quite fast, hmm why is this feeling so familiar?

There are a few sources now which offers Installous but I think its best to get it from the original source (of course its more lessons from the earlier experience). So I would just recommend a couple of things to you if you are new to jailbreak (which I doubt very much) :

Sources :
http://cydia.hackulo.us
http://sinfuliphonerepo.com

Cydia tweaks/apps :
Installous (DUH!)
SBSettings (you will get Activator once you choose to install this)
Barrel
Fake Carrier

Since I am more of the n00b here, please do recommend more useful stuff :)

How many days are there in 1 week?

Based on my education and understanding of how a calender works, its 7 days. What about your's? Is your week different from mine? Do you have more or less???

Perhaps one would argue that a working week is 5 days or 5.5 days, heck many are now going 7 days a week as well.

Perhaps another one would argue that his/her leave would coincide with a public holiday so his/her 1 week is actually longer as well.

So I guess it should work the same way as well you say that you will be planning 1 week of activities which consists of 8 days and oh since there will be a public holiday, let's make that another +2 days. OK, so other people's 1 week have more days than mine and my understanding of 1 week is totally fucked up. Well, fuck my plans and enjoy your week.

How would you feel when you get the short end of the stick? So the next time when I say a week, its gonna be however the hell many days that I plan it to be. I don't give shit about your useless calender which always says that its got 7 days in it.

2012 2012 2012

Some say its the end of the world. Its also someone's birthday. Today was an OK day but I left office so late trying to figure out how fucked up my mess was. I am short of RM150,000 to pay my vendor. RM50k of which I can actually worry about later. So that just leaves me with RM100,000 short. Now that's a bitch and I am fucked up real bad now. I think I should be able to cover it up next year when I run a similar project next year.

If the world ends today or tomorrow then I don't have to give a shit about this shit. I doubt it very much so I'm still gonna be fucked up. There are still many things that needs to be done before this year ends and I am supposed to clear my leave from Christmas onwards. Makes me really wanna say "Yippikaiyay Motherfucker!" and swallow a couple of painkillers so that my headache will go away.

Well, that its for this post and we'll see if I wake up tomorrow. Most likely I will open my eyes and end up cussing tomorrow morning because its already scheduled that I will have more work at night until at least midnight. mlm mlm

I always say the "right" things at the "wrong" time

I used to be a quiet person. I don't talk much because I don't have much to say particularly to the people whom I don't know. But if I am close to someone I might be a little more chatty but therein lies the problem. I almost always speak my mind so that means I am shooting so damn straight that people who don't know me might think that I am crazy to utter some things.

I am not sure how you are brought up but I have been constantly reminded that I am not supposed to lie. I had the shock of my life when I went to college. YOU CAN'T FUCKING SURVIVE IF YOU DON'T FUCKING LIE!!! I get to meet so many interesting and bad characters that I realize that I have tomust lie.

However, sometimes I unknowingly let slip what flashed across my mind and it normally lands me in a pile of shit so high that its over my head. Can't say that I don't really deserve it. To be honest, I was really telling the goddamned truth BUT nobody likes the truth. I hate myself for not being able to control myself BUT I will hate myself more if I kept it in too much.

Sigh, its sad that sometimes I will turn my friends away because its perhaps not what they want to hear and the stupid me just reminded them of their grief or wrongdoings. I do hope my close friends understand me enough to know that I am me and for me, I believe that the truth is better than lies especially among friends. Of course they are entitled their own fantasy bubble that should not be burst by my unfortunate knowing of their truth. For this I apologize for all the wrong or uncomfortableness that I may have caused.

I really must shut the fuck up more before I lose more friends. Too bad I really just can't help it if I see something wrong and let rip. Also, some people when talking about some secretive stuff they tend to be a tad too loud and I would overhear and then butt in :p So here's news for you, whisper even softer when talking about secret stuff because some people's hearing are better than others and will pick up what you say =D

Iyor ...

I remember when I went for A levels studies, there was a statistics class. The lecturer was not your average teacher character. One day, he taught us about why the dealer of any gambling business is always the winner. He gave a very simple example of betting on a 4d (digit) number. He used the board to show us that for every RM1 we bet, the dealer already made 40c regardless of the result. This means that you have already lost 40c for every ringgit you bet. So do you still feel like gambling anymore? =D

Of course, despite the odds, there should be a winner because there is chance/probability that the number you bet on would be the winning number. So that is why there are still many punters who will bet their ass for the big prize. Your's truly is no different because if I really managed to strike it, my life would be changed =D

I only remembered that I had bought a number of lottery tickets from a few months ago and I just checked the results. I was down to my last few tickets when the numbers I was searching for was suddenly highlighting on the first prize ... I couldn't believe my eyes because I got 6 matching numbers! However, 6 matching numbers does not make you a winner T_T

4000 tickets away T_T

Due to the combination of my matching numbers, I will be getting RM50 for this ticket. I better go exchange it before it expires :p So close yet so far, RM3 for RM3 million ...

Full wipe?

For Android users who play with custom roms, you will definitely hear of that term. But most of the time, even if you are following the steps listed by the rom creator, you could still be doing it wrong it seems. I knew that what was written by the rom creators were not enough because I can see lots of old data from the roms which I had been flashing after I had learned to do it properly. A lot of those junk programs which I do not re-install still have their folders on my phone. So while reading a forum which is specifically for my phone model, I read about a more detailed  steps to do a real full wipe. 

Since I have not been doing it correctly, it does make sense that sometimes my phone is acting strangely with symptoms which no other have reported. So the next time when I'm installing a new rom, most likely Jelly Bean 4.2, I will be doing the below steps to clear up all the junks.

The correct procedure for doing a full wipe is below.

Go to clockworkmod recovery.

Volume up, power button, and home button all pressed together for a couple of seconds.

Wipe the cache partition

Go to Advanced and wipe the dalvik and batt stats

Go to mounts and storage and select it.

Go to format / system and select it.
Scroll down to format system and select yes.

Go to format / data and select it
Scroll down to format data and select yes.

Go to format / cache and select it.
Scroll down to format cache and select yes.

Now go back and install the rom from the internal or external sd card.

This is the correct way of doing a full wipe everything is erased and formatted ready for the new rom, no old system files, old kernel remnants etc....

No need to wipe data/factory reset, and your internal and external sd cards remain untouched.

If you have done this, please let me know the result. Of course my advice would be for you to still back up you data first, JUST IN CASE.

Cheers, happy wiping and flashing =D

그대 핸드폰이 난 너무 부럽습니다

At first I got a little confused with these 2 songs because they both mentioned about handphones :p It has great meaning seeing that how handphones are important to all of us now.

백지영  - 아이캔`t 드링크

난 술을 못마셔요
몇 번을 얘기해야 되요
술을 마시면
전화를 하는 몹쓸 병에 걸렸죠

그렇게 이상하면
이별을 한번 해보세요
이별을 하면 알게 될 거야
술 마시면 안 되는 이유

취하면 바보 같은 용기가 생겨서
취하면 바보 같은 사랑이 커져서
그러면 안 되는 걸 알면서
자꾸 핸드폰을 쳐다보고 이렇게
몇 번을 망설이다 번호를 누르고
난 아직까지 너만 사랑해~
내가 보고 싶어 미치겠다고
어제처럼 전화를 하죠

난 정말 못 마셔요
나 이제 그만 일어날래
술을 마시면
눈물이 나는 몹쓸 병에 걸렸죠

그 사람 생각나면
한잔씩 하며 참아왔죠
그래서일까 술을 마시면
바보처럼 또 눈물이 나

울다가 바보 같은 눈물에 취해서
울다가 끝나버린 사랑에 취해서
그러면 안 되는 걸 알면서
다시 전화번호 누르게 돼이렇게

차갑게 식어버린 목소리 들으며
난 죽고 싶어 제발 돌아와~
이미 끊겨 버린 전화를들고
어제처럼 그렇게 울죠
울죠

Translations

Baek Ji Young - I Can't Drink

I can’t drink
How many times should I say
If I drink
I had a bad disease to make a call

If you think it’s strange
Then try to breakup once
If you ever breakup, you will know
The reason I can’t drink

If I get drunk, I will get more silly courage
If I get drunk, this silly love will grow bigger
Because I know that I shouldn’t
So I just staring at the handphone like this
I don’t know how many times I hesitate to dial the number
even now, I still only love you~
I miss you like crazy
Just like yesterday, I call you

I really can’t drink
I want to stop and sober up
If I drink
I had a bad disease to cry

If I think about that person
I should bear to drink
Because If I drink
Like a fool, I will cry again.

Drunk over and shed tears like a fool
Drunk over an ended love and crying
That’s why, I know I shouldn’t
Keep dial the phone number like this
If I hear your cold voice
I just want to die, Please come back~

Holding the phone that already hung up
Just like yesterday, I’m crying again
Crying…

 Another lovely song from the same OST

허각 - 나를 잊지 말아요

사랑이란 멀리 있는 것 눈에 보이면 가슴 아파 눈물이 나죠
그래서 널 떠나요 사랑을 사랑하려고
안녕 안녕 안녕

나를 잊지 말아요 일초를 살아도 그대 사랑하는 마음 하나 뿐이 예요
그 하나를 위해서 슬픈 눈물 숨기고 떠나가는 나를 기억해주세요

나를 잊지 말아주세요 사랑한다는 한마디도 못하고 가는
혼자 했던 사랑이 떠날 땐 편한 것 같아 안녕 안녕 안녕

제발 잊지 말아요 천년을 살아도 그대 사랑하는 마음뿐인 바보 였죠
그대 핸드폰이 난 너무 부럽습니다 지금도 니 옆에 같이 있잖아요

혹시 이 세상에서 그댈 사랑한 사람이 한 사람 뿐이면
그건 나라는 걸 나라는 걸 기억해

나를 잊지 말아요 일초를 살아도 그대 사랑하는 마음 하나 뿐이 예요
그 하나를 위해서 슬픈 눈물 숨기고 떠나가는 나를 잊지 말아줘요

제발 잊지 말아요 천년을 살아도 그대 사랑하는 마음뿐인 바보 였죠
그대 핸드폰이 난 너무 부럽습니다 지금도 니 옆에 같이 있잖아요

나를 잊지 말아요

Translations

Huh Gak - Don't Forget Me

With dreaming eyes, I see love is somewhere distant
You see the tears of heartache I'm shedding, that's why I left for this love
Goodbye, Goodbye, Goodbye

Don't forget me, even if I live for one second
This heart that loves you, the only one
For this only one, holding back tears of sadness, I left

Please don't forget me
I left without even saying "I Love You" once
This lonely love, as I leave I seem to be at  peace
Goodbye, Goodbye, Goodbye

Please don't forget me, even if I live for a thousand years
The one foolish heart that loves you
How I envy your handphone, it's still by your side right now

If in this world, there is only one person who loves you
That person is me, it's me remember that
Don't forget me, even if I live for one second
This heart that loves you, the only one
For this only one, holding back tears of sadness, I left

Don't forget that, Please don't forget me,
even if I live for a thousand years
The one foolish heart that loves you

How I envy your handphone, it's still by your side right now
Oh, Don't forget me

Youthful idiocy

Almost everyone would have gone through a period that they were doing stupid things. Some things which defies logic and makes no sense to others BUT to you it was not crazy, in fact it felt more like the only thing that can or must be done.

As you would have guessed, I just finished another drama. Perhaps I am too much over that age range so it was not really interesting to me BUT the songs I like very much. The subbing team did not translate much if any at all of the songs. I can only guess the meaning of it as I try to catch the phrases which I understand. So after some searching, I find that my own translations were not bad and it is totally written for the drama. That being said, this whole OST is good as a whole unlike some which contains really bad songs :p All of them are enjoyable but these are my picks based on my preference :)

A song that makes me want to dance but the meaning is not really for that :)

태민(샤이니) - 너란 말야 (U)

너를 좋아한다는 그 말을
차마 할 수 없었어
그냥 이대로 니 옆에 있어도 좋아
그대 한번만 더 용기를 내볼까
내 맘을 전해볼까
이런 내 맘도 모르고서 마냥
환하게 웃는 너

내가 널 원하고 있단 말야
내가 널 부르고 있단 말야
내 손을 잡아 내 손을 잡아
잃어버릴까 두렵잖아

내가 널 원하고 있단 말야
내가 널 사랑한다는 말야
널 향한 내 맘 듣고 있니
바라만 봐도 아프잖아
이렇게

수줍게 설렌 맘을 감추고
오늘도 너를 만나서
혹시 내 맘을 들키진 않을까
뒤돌아서는 너

내가 널 원하고 있단 말야
내가 널 부르고 있단 말야
내 손을 잡아 내 손을 잡아
잃어버릴까 두렵잖아

내가 널 원하고 있단 말야
내가 널 사랑한다는 말야
널 향한 내 맘 듣고 있니
바라만 봐도 아프잖아

I still need you, I still need you
어떤것도 널 대신할 수 없어
Cause I love you 기다려줘
내 맘 전해줄께

내가 널 찾고 있었단 말야
내가 널 갖고싶다는 말야
내 손을 잡아 내 손을 잡아
잃어버릴까 두렵잖아

내가 널 원하고 있단 말야
내가 널 사랑한다는 말야
널 향한 내 맘 듣고있니
바라만 봐도 아프잖아
이렇게

Translation

Taemin - U

I couldn’t bear to say that I like you
Just being by your side like this was good enough

Yes, should I muster up
some courage one more time?
Should I tell you how I feel?
You don’t even know
my heart and you just smile brightly

I’m telling you that I want you
I’m telling you that I’m calling you
Hold my hand, hold my hand
I’m afraid that I’ll lose you

I’m telling you that I want you
I’m telling you that I love you
Are you listening to my heart for you?
It hurts just to look at you
Like this

Shyly, I hide my fluttering heart
And I met you again today
I worry that my heart will be noticed
So I turn around

I’m telling you that I want you
I’m telling you that I’m calling you
Hold my hand, hold my hand
I’m afraid that I’ll lose you

I’m telling you that I want you
I’m telling you that I love you
Are you listening to my heart for you?
It hurts just to look at you

I still need you, I still need you
Nothing can replace you
Cuz I love you – wait for me
I will tell you my heart

I’m telling you that I’m looking for you
I’m telling you that I want to have you
Hold my hand, hold my hand
I’m afraid that I’ll lose you

I’m telling you that I want you
I’m telling you that I love you
Are you listening to my heart for you?
It hurts just to look at you
Like this

I like this singer's voice, powerful and strong

"샤이니" 온뉴 - In Your Eyes

단 한번도 말한 적 없지만
사실 말야 난 그날에 이 심장이 뛰는걸 느꼈어

처음부터 난 알 수 있었어
확신할 순 없었지만 이미 우린 정해진 운명 같았어

사랑은 내게로 와
너를 이끄는 시간으로
영원히 깨지 않는
꿈만 같았어 정말 꿈만 같아서

처음 만난 그날을 기억해
눈이 부시게 빛나던 그런 날에 내게 와줬던
고마워 니가 내게 와줘서

처음부터 난 알 수 있었어
확신할 순 없었지만 이미 우린 정해진 운명 같았어

사랑은 내게로 와
너를 이끄는 시간으로

영원히 깨지 않는
꿈만 같았어 정말 꿈만 같아서

날 보며 웃는 너
이렇게 좋은 날
왜 눈물이 날까
내 눈에는

영원히 깨지 않을
꿈 이길 바래 늘 변치 않기를

사랑이 머무는 곳
우리 함께 할 시간으로
영원히 변치 않을
꿈만 같았어 내겐 꿈만 같아서

처음 만난 그날을 기억해
눈이 부시게 빛나던 그런 날에 니가 와줘서
고마워 정말

Translation

SHINee Onew - In Your Eyes

I’ve never said this before
To tell you the truth, I felt my heart beating on that day

Since the beginning, I knew
I wasn’t sure but it felt like our fate was already decided

Love is coming to me
It leads me toward you
It feels like a dream that I’ll never wake up from
It really seems like a dream

I remember the day we first met
You came to me on a dazzling and bright day
Thank you for coming to me

Since the beginning, I knew
I wasn’t sure but it felt like our fate was already decided

Love is coming to me
It leads me toward you
It feels like a dream that I’ll never wake up from
It really seems like a dream

You are smiling at me
On this beautiful day
But why are tears forming
In my eyes?

I hope this is a dream that I’ll never wake up from
I hope things will never change

I hope the place where love lingers
Can be somewhere we can be together
It feels like a dream that I’ll never wake up from
It really seems like a dream

I remember the day we first met
You came to me on a dazzling and bright day
Thank you so much for coming to me

A happy, happy rhythm =D

써니 & 루나 - 나야

[써니] 사랑해 사랑해 사랑해
천 번을 말해도 모자라
그리워 그리워 그리운
순간마다 더 그리워

[루나] 부르고 부르고 부르면
자꾸만 떠오르는 얼굴
바라고 바라고 바라면
언젠간 니가 내 맘 알아줄까

[모두] 오직 너밖에 모르는 그런 나야
너만을 사랑해 줄 사람 바로 나야
널 만난 세상이 내겐
[루나] 기적 같은 일이라 그런 거야

[모두] 오직 너만을 원하는 그런 나야
너만을 지켜 줄 사람도 바로 나야
[써니] 니 곁에 너만 바라보는
그게 나야 미련한 나야

[루나] 니 얼굴 그리다 잠들면
꿈속에서라도 만날까
[써니] 원하고 원하고 원하면
언젠간 니가 내 맘 알아줄까

[모두] 오직 너밖에 모르는 그런 나야
너만을 사랑해 줄 사람 바로 나야
널 만난 세상이 내겐
[써니] 기적 같은 일이라 그런 거야

[모두] 오직 너만을 원하는 그런 나야
너만을 지켜 줄 사람도 바로 나야
[루나] 니 곁에 너만 바라보는 그게 나야

[써니] 내 마음이 말하잖아
너뿐이라고 말하잖아
[루나] 너를 너만 사랑하는
이런 나야 이게 나야

[써니] 오직 네게만 들려 줄 사랑얘기
한 사람만을 사랑했단 그런 얘기
[루나] 혼자만 간직해 아무도 모르는 사랑이 바로 나야

[모두] 오직 널 위해 부르는 사랑노래
오직 내게만 들리는 그런 노래
늘 곁에 네게만 들려 줄
사랑 노래 [루나] 부르는 나야

Translation

Sunny & Luna - Its Me

[Sunny] I love you, I love you, I love you
Even if I say it a thousand times, it’s not enough
I miss you, I miss you, I miss you
Every moment, I miss you more

[Luna] I call you and call you and call you
Your face keeps rising up
If I hope and hope and hope
Will you know how I feel someday?

[All] You're the only one who doesn't know that it's me
The person who will only love you is me
In this world where I met you
[Luna] It's like a miracle to me

[All] It’s me who only wants you
The person who can protect you is me
[Sunny] It’s me who only looks at you by your side
A foolish me

[All] If I draw out your face before sleeping
Will I meet you in my dreams?
[Sunny] If I want you and want you and want you
Will you know how I feel someday?

[Luna] You're the only one who doesn't know that it's me
The person who will only love you is me
In this world where I met you
[Sunny] It's like a miracle to me

[All] It’s me who only wants you
The person who can protect you is me
[Luna] It’s me who only looks at you by your side

[Sunny] I'm telling you my heart
I'm only telling you
[Luna] The person who loves only you
That's me, it’s me

[Sunny] This love story is only to be told to you
A story about how she loved only one person
[Luna] It's just me who keeps this love that no one knows about to myself

[All] I’m singing this love song only for you
A song that can be heard only by you
I will always be by your side
[Luna] It's me who will only sing you [All] This love song

I can hear the sadness ...

태연 (소녀시대) - 가까이 

하지 못한 말이 너무 많아요
한번도 당신은 듣지 못했지만
내 앞에 보여진 누군갈 아무나 사랑할
그런 사람은 아니에요

세상의 그 많은 사람들 속에
내겐 오직 그대가 보여졌기에

그대만 보며 서있는걸요
이 사랑 후엔 난 잘 모르겠어요
아주 어린 아이가 항상 그러하듯이
지금 이순간 따스히 안아줄래요

언젠간 낯선 이름이 되어도
내 가슴이 그 추억이 다 기억할 테니까
혹시라도 아픈 이별이 온대도
오늘은 그런 생각은 하지 마요

이세상 그 많은 사람들 속에
내겐 오직 그대가 보여졌기에

그대만 보며 서있는걸요
이 사랑 후엔 난 잘 모르겠어요
아주 어린 아이가 항상 그러하듯이
더 가까이 더 따스히 안아줄래요

이제 난 혼자가 아닌 거죠
그 자리에서 오늘 나에게 온 그대 만이

그대만 나의 전부인걸요
이 사랑 후엔 난 잘 모르겠어요
아주 어린 아이가 항상 그러하듯이
더 가까이 더 따스히 안아줄래요

더 가까이
더 따스히
안아줄래요

Translation 

TaeYeon (SNSD) - Closer

There are so many things I couldn’t say
Although you have never heard them before
The day I meet someone who appears in front of me
I'm not someone who just loves anyone I see

Among the many people in this world
I could only see you

I'll be standing here looking only at you
After this love, I don’t really know what will happen
Like what children always do
Will you warmly hold me right now?

Though your name might become unfamiliar someday
My heart will remember all the memories
Even if a painful separation comes between us
Let’s not think about it today

Among the many people in this world
I could only see you

I'll be standing here looking only at you
After this love, I don’t really know what will happen
Like what children always do
Will you warmly hold me right now?

I’m not alone now
At that place today, only you came to me

Only you are my everything
After this love, I don’t really know what will happen
Like what children always do
Will you warmly hold me right now?

Closer
Warmer
Will you hold me?

I'm getting bored of these dramas though. The background of the characters are repeating in a similar fashion way too much and some plots are just so predictable. However some of the scripts dares to kill off major actor/actress unlike HK or Taiwan dramas. Kudos to those who dared and definitely caught me off guard to make things interesting again. :)

Time to hunt for more titles I suppose.

My phone's new accessory =_="

Last week, we had a new system cutover and there was a change in process where I will need to login back to a system. When it was rolled out, all of had problems using or connecting to the system. My Blackberry had to be formatted just to reinstall the thing which did not work properly during UAT. I was very reluctant to use my SGSII to access the system as I wanted it to remain as my personal phone. However to ensure that I am able to carry out my duties, it has to be sacrificed and I installed the application. That was the easy part.

Over the weekend, there was a real need to access that system BUT all my team members either did not see the message or could not login to the system due to various reasons ranging from poor reception for data and did not bring their two factor authentication (2FA) token with them when they go out. Well, I am one of those who did not bring the token :p So to prevent future incidents, I now have a not so prefered dangling phone accessory, the 2FA token =_=|||

Looks damn fugly to be a phone accessory if you ask me ...

More sacrifices for the company and yet I am still poorly paid. Tunasingh betul ...

I like these

Just finished watching quite an old series after getting to know about it from a friend. Not really good for my memories but overall its OK. Since its quite an old series, the links to download the OST were mostly dead :( Took me quite some time to find a live link and got the songs. Some seems to be tailored for the drama which is a little more investment than some other country's productions

Also, what a beauty this is :

 Park Si Yeon

 Ippuda

페이지원

어쩌죠 그대가 또 생각이 나요 내 심장
이 한 사람만 원해요
ojjojyo geudega tto senggagi nayo ne
simjangi han saramman wonheyo
어쩌죠 사랑이 난 겁이나는데 마주보면
난 또 웃게돼
ojjojyo sarangi nan gobinaneunde
majubomyon nan tto utgedwe
나를 설레게 하는 사람 숨겨왔던 내맘
들켜버린 것 같아
nareul sollege haneun saram
sumgyowatdon nemam deulkyoborin
got gata
사랑해요 사랑해줘요 단 하루도 그대없
인 안돼요
sarangheyo saranghejwoyo dan
harudo geude obsin andweyo
그대에게 첫사랑 난 아니라 해도 나는
너무 행복해
geude-ege chossarang nan anira
hedo naneun nomu hengbokhe
보이나요 나에 사랑이 들리나요 심장이
뛰는 소리를
boinayo ne sarangi deullinayo
simjangi ttwineun sorireul
어쩌면 그 전부터 시작된 사랑도 그대일
지몰라
ojjomyon geu jonbuto sijakdwen
sarangdo geudeiljimolla
나를 꿈꾸게 하는 사람 내게 남은 사랑
모두 다 주고 싶어
nareul kkumkkuge haneun saram
nege nameun sarang modu da jugo
sipo
사랑해요 사랑해줘요 단 하루도 그대없
인 안돼요
sarangheyo saranghejwoyo dan
harudo geudeobsin andweyo
그대에게 첫사랑 난 아니라 해도 나는
너무 행복해
geude-ege chossarang nan anira
hedo naneun nomu hengbokhe
보이나요 나에 사랑이 들리나요 심장이
뛰는 소리를
boinayo ne sarangi deullinayo
simjangi ttwineun sorireul
어쩌면 그 전부터 시작된 사랑도 그대일
지몰라
ojjomyon geu jonbuto sijakdwen
sarangdo geudeiljimolla
나 아파도 기다릴게요 언제라도 그 어떤
모습이라도
na apado gidarilgeyo onjerado geu
otton moseubirado
내겐 멋질테니까 그댈 볼 수 있다면 그
걸로 난 충분해
negen motjiltenikka geudel bol su
itdamyon geugollo nan chungbunhe
보이나요 나에 사랑이 들리나요 심장이
뛰는 소리를
boinayo ne sarangi deullinayo
simjangi ttwineun sorireul
그댄 나의 첫사랑 내 마지막 사랑 날 사
랑해줘요
geuden naye chossarang ne majimak
sarang nal saranghejwoyo

Translation

Page One

What to do, I’m thinking of you again
My heart only wants one person
What to do, I’m afraid of love
But when I see you, I smile again
You make my heart flutter
I think my hidden heart has been revealed
* I love you, please love me-
I can’ t live a day without you
Even if I’m not your first love, I am so happy
Can you see my love? Can you hear my beating heart?
My love for you might have started way before
You make me dream
All the love I have left, I want to give to you
* repeat
Even if it hurts, I’ll wait- until always
No matter how you are, you’ll look great to me
If I can see you, that’s enough for me
Can you see my love? Can you hear my beating heart?
You are my first love, my last love please love me

Another song from the same series.

Hwang Ji Hyeon - 난 이별을 모를래요

주르륵 눈물이 흘러 스르륵 두눈이 감겨
이별이라 말하지는 말아요
보일듯 멀어져가는 잡힐듯 잡히지 않는
그대라서 난 오늘도 눈물만
난 이별을 모를래요 모르고 살래요
슬픔따위 없을거라
약속했던 사람 그대 아니었나요

사랑해요 우리 어떻게 헤어져요
들리나요 미치도록 그대 보고 싶은데
내가 어떻게 잊어요 그대를 지울까요
매일 눈물로 나 살텐데
지긋이 두눈을 감고 깨끗이 눈물을 닦고
그댈 향한 그리움을 닦아요
그래도 안되나봐요 사랑이라는게
잊으려 하면 할수록
더욱 생각나고 그리워지나봐요
사랑해요 우리 어떻게 헤어져요
들리나요 미치도록 그대 보고 싶은데
내가 어떻게 잊어요 그대를 지울까요
매일 눈물로 나 살텐데
미안해요 나는 그댈 잊지 못해요
여전히 난 그대만을 사랑하고 원해요
다시 사랑한다해도 다른 누굴 만나도
그대 같은 사람 없어요

Translation

Hwang Ji Hyeon - I don’t want to know about goodbye

Tears are falling, my eyes are closing
Don't tell me it's goodbye


You look close but you're far away, it looks as if I can grab you but I couldn't
That's why I am crying today

I don't want to know about goodbye, I just want to live without knowing that
Wasn't you who promised me that there is no sadness

I love you, how can we part
Can you hear me, I want to see you so bad
How should I forget you, how should I erase you
I'm going to live crying everyday

Close my eyes and wipe my tears
I am going to live longing for you

It doesn't work that way for love
When I try to forget you, it makes me yearn more

I love you, how can we part
Can you hear me, I want to see you so bad
How should I forget you, how should I erase you
I'm going to live crying everyday

I'm sorry I cannot forget you
I still love you and want you
Even if I fall in love with somebody else
It won't be anything like you

I like to enjoy my songs along with understanding what it means which normally makes me like it even more. Unfortunately for me, it seems that the songs that I like are sad songs.

Interesting queries

I was invited to have a lunch at a place which my friends intended to go not too long ago. But do to some unforeseen circumstances, we did not manage to go that restaurant. I don't think I would go there by myself because it looks expensive and indeed when I was browsing the menu, it was quite out of my comfort zone BUT since it was a vendor treat so I just needed to select what I want to eat =D

While waiting for the food to arrive, I went through a big stack queries and found that these were very interesting hence I would like to hear what are your answers to these?

Honestly, I would like to face the ocean just like how my college room used to be. Well preferably with a nicer beach which of course should come with beautiful girls in bikini XD

 Hmm other than my very close friends, I think most people don't know me ...

 Hohoho, exploration of all kinds of course. Go to places where normally I won't go and do the things which I normally can't do.

 This is a real tough one. If I can change it for the better, I would go to the past else to the future to see how things would turn out.

Contrary to what most people perceive me, I have not done much bad things so there are quite a number of things which I would really like to try out.

If you haven't guessed it by now. the place is Ben's =)

The food is not so great for the price that comes along with it. If you really want to try something different, try the vanilla peanut butter milkshake =D However for me, it still loses to Manhattan Fish Market's Chocolate Peanut Butter milkshake or Fat Boy's Thick Chocolate Milkshake

Let me know what you guys think about the queries, I handpicked these out of about 100 cards.

Choose your poison

I thought my landmark 300th post would be something interesting but its of hate ...

If you ask someone to tell you the truth, would you be expecting a gentle landing or a hammer to your head? More often than not, you should get hit by the hammer BUT this crazy working society will more likely create a soft landing for your 100 floor drop. I mean WTF is with that? You wanted an honest answer, you should know that it could go both ways so why expect only the flowery and supposed nice to hear things?

You gave me the opportunity to tell you truth so you got the cold hard truth from your's truly. You fucking asked for it and I am not supposed to tell you the truth??? Perhaps I should be sick of the truth and just fart lies all over the place and tell you its the fragrance of David Beckham and it will get you all the girls.

SIGH. Unfortunately, I think all companies will be the same. Stupid politics and dominance for power. Sounds very much like emulating something which is happening on a bigger scale to me. If you really want to progress, you must listen to the grassroots. These are your foundation. Perhaps they have forgotten that they were once down on the ground and really want to see the good for the future. Their focus now are on a different, perhaps more personal matter.

I can't even continue to type on this as I feel so sick of all this crap.

Please continue to enjoy your poison chalice of lies.

Still dreaming

I have been on anti inflammatory (to suppress pain and also to reduce swelling for my ankle) for almost a week and the night pill is drowsy. I was really hoping that it would KO me until morning and it did a pretty good job but while sleeping, dreams would invade my slumber and sometimes cause uneasiness. Since a young age, I believe I have a mild form of insomnia and I have learned to cope with it with a going-to-sleep technique. I would imagine a sky filled with stars, almost similar to what you would see if you are going to pass out. Well at least that is the last thing I remember before I find myself waking up in the morning.

I don't really what is in my mind that might cause my dreams because its definitely not about work. About other things, I have tried very much to not think too much. What I'm really thinking is when I am going to visit my friend in a far away country with my son. My initial plan was to go somewhere end May but then I realized that its actually winter there ... Even when its not winter its cold, so I don't think it would be a good idea and a colleague of mine was there during winter and she said that there is a possibility that some places might not be open due to the weather. September holidays is not that long but he can't skip classes because this year he is having some exams during that time. Sigh ...

Green Day - Boulevard of Broken Dreams

I walk a lonely road
The only one that I have ever known
Don't know where it goes
But it's home to me and I walk alone

I walk this empty street
On the Boulevard of Broken Dreams
When the city sleeps
And I'm the only one and I walk alone

I walk alone
I walk alone
I walk alone
I walk a...

My shadow's the only one that walks beside me
My shallow heart's the only thing that's beating
Sometimes I wish someone up there will find me
'til then I walk alone

Ah-ah, ah-ah, ah-ah, aaah-ah,
Ah-ah, ah-ah, ah-ah

I'm walking down the line
That divides me somewhere in my mind
On the border line
Of the edge and where I walk alone

Read between the lines
What's fucked up when everything's alright
Check my vital signs
To know I'm still alive and I walk alone

I walk alone
I walk alone
I walk alone
I walk a...

My shadow's the only one that walks beside me
My shallow heart's the only thing that's beating
Sometimes I wish someone up there will find me
'til then I walk alone

Ah-ah, ah-ah, ah-ah, aaah-ah
Ah-ah, ah-ah

I walk alone
I walk a...

I walk this empty street
On the Boulevard of Broken Dreams
When the city sleeps
And I'm the only one and I walk a...

My shadow's the only one that walks beside me
My shallow heart's the only thing that's beating
Sometimes I wish someone up there will find me
'til then I walk alone...

부족한 날 그대가 다 허락한다면

I was introduced by my friends to another series and although I have not finished it, I would like to get to know more about the songs in it. I think the main theme was too cliche so I was not really impressed by it. So in my search for the other titles, I listened as I read the translations to this song, 이영현 - 화답. Normally for a song title, it would be found somewhere in the song but this interesting song did not and at the end of it, I finally realized that the whole song was a question waiting for a response ie the song title. My hats off again to another Korean song :)

이영현 - 화답

언제나 손 내밀면 닿을듯한 그곳에 서 있을께요
기쁠때면 내가 먼저 환하게 웃어줄께요
이런 나도 그댈 사랑해요

바보같단 그런말은 하지마요
고마웠단 그런말도 하지마요
그대가 내곁에 있는것만으로
그것만으로 난 행복하죠

하루하루 견딜 수 없던 시간도
매일매일 지쳐가던 내 일상도
그대가 있어서 그대를 만나서
지금껏 견딜수가 있었죠

언제나 손 내밀면 닿을듯한 그곳에 서 있을께요
기쁠때면 내가 먼저 환하게 웃어줄께요
고마워요~ 이런 나도 바보같죠

언제나 눈을뜨면 보일듯한 그곳에 서 있을께요
늘 곁에서 그대만 바라보며
부족한 날 그대가 다 허락한다면

끝이없을 것만 같던 그 사랑때문에
왠지 나도 또 눈물이 나요

언제나 손 내밀면 닿을듯한 그곳에 서 있을께요
슬플때면 내가먼저 그대를 안아줄께요
고마워요~ 이런 나도 바보같죠~ 오~

언제나 날 부르면 들리듯한 그곳에 서있을께요
늘 곁에서 그대만 바라보며
부족한 날 그대가 다 허락한다면

As always, the translation :

Lee Young Hyun - Response

Whenever your hands out for help, I’ll be there to reach your hand
When you’re happy, I’ll be the first person who gives you a bright smile
This kind of me, also love you

Don’t say that I look like a fool
You don’t even have to say “thank you”
To have you by my side
Just by that makes me happy

The time I can’t bear day by day
And also the tiredness I felt everyday
Because you’re there, because I met you
Just like now, I can bear it

Whenever your hands out for help, I’ll be there to reach your hand
When you’re happy, I’ll be the first person who gives you a bright smile
Thank you, this kind of me looks like fool

Whenever you open your eyes, I’ll be there around your sight
I’ll always by your side, looking at you
If only you can accept the deficient me

Because of this never-ended-love
Why do I keep crying like this

Whenever your hands out for help, I’ll be there to reach your hand
When you’re sad, I will be the first person who hugs you.
Thank you, this kind of me looks like a fool

Whenever you calling out my name, I’ll be around where I can hear you
I’ll always by your side, looking at you
If only you can accept all the deficient me

I will have to admit that I have not gotten over some things and this does makes me think back, opposing to what I promised to my friends I would do. I do think lesser now but there are still times when I can't really control myself. Thinking back, my friends were really right, I have been fantasizing too much and its really out of my reach because I was never a priority just an in-betweener. Actually I have realized that I am not up to expectation much earlier but somehow living in denial for so many years because I just cannot let go.

Twisted

On weekends which I am alone, I would be so lonely. So last weekend I went out with my friends for a movie. In my opinion, it was a great movie. Hotel Transylvania, very recommended because I laughed for almost the whole movie.

While leaving the cinema, I did not really pay attention to the steps and twisted my right ankle. With that, I was bedridden for a couple of days. I really couldn't walk much because it was really painful so I tried to restrict my movements to go to the toilet only. The rest of the time I would just watch some movie or drama. I even rewatched an old movie which I don't think I will get bored of.

My time in bed also left me time to ponder on some questions which were posed to me but I chose to ignore or shy away from. I guess some of the advices which I did not take before were really good because when I am calm like this and have time to think about it, its really true. So I will be taking more advices into consideration and of course will listen better.

On top of that, an old question came back into my mind. Actually this was also asked by a friend. Perhaps I was not so calm when I initially considered about this query but now that I am trapped in bed, I am thinking of reconsidering this matter. There is more than myself to be considered and some of the things when I think back really scares me and I really dislike it. Would things really be different this time around? I think the only way to find out is to try it but to do so, its really not simple and it will definitely need a lot of change again. 

A real smile after a long hiatus from an unexpected source :)

Today I smiled again, a real smile which was not faked. It was so unexpected that it really brighten up my day although it was almost end of the day. A colleague from another floor who unintentionally found out something about me, repeated to me what many others have told me before but the way she talked to me was so sincere that I cannot put on a fake smile to face her.

It was never my intention to do what I did but I needed a faster shortcut to achieve what I required. Its not the correct way but I needed to do it. Although now, I think its not such a shortcut after all =_="

Thinking back, I think I smiled all the way back to my floor. I could not hold back and shared my experience with my closest neighbour. I have not been so sincerely happy for quite some time :)

What cannot be expressed comes out as a deep long sigh

That was a line in a song which I recently came to know and like. To some extent, I believe everyone would have the same feeling or action. For me, a sigh is like a signature probably because there is always something in my mind which I cannot express to others. Perhaps I am just being overly careful with what I know/feel vs what I should say. That being said, I am someone who will speak my mind, LOL complete irony...

A couple of weeks ago, a colleague announced that she just split from someone whom she was supposed to marry at the end of this year. Many of her friends were surprised but all were supportive of her. Her question was, "Should I still remain friends with him or not?". The crowd was split and my advice to her was that it really depends on whether she wants to maintain a relationship. Based on her own answers to her friends, it was obvious that she wanted to remain as friends BUT as a guy, I know that there will always be a flicker of flame and may want to harbour a small minute possibility. If it has been made clear then it really depends on the other person on how they want to think.

Another colleague of mine told her to totally cut ties with him. Her reasoning was simple, to avoid complications of what I just said above. Depending on your character, this may or may not be the best solution. To me, if I know this person well enough, I will know how they think and depending on that, the correct decision will be obvious.

Just a couple of days ago, my friends also asked me the same question. The above 2 scenarios are both correct in their own ways. A part of me does not want to but the other part is directly the opposite. So the decision that I made is based on what I currently can or cannot do. Since I know what I must overcome will take time, the best solution is to be far away BUT I cannot do that as I have a responsibility here. Else I would have left a couple of years ago. So I am neither here nor there but let go I must and allow time to erode whatever that is left.

Am I lying to myself again? Perhaps with the answer which I had sought for so long is now known, I can really let it go but time is required to dilute and wash away what is not to be. However, some things are so deeply etched into me that I can never forget even with time. It pains me very much each time that we are close again but you are actually so far away. SIGH ...

There you have it folks, I have made sighing my signature. I sigh to let off the pressure that have accumulated in a troubled me.

Thank you my dear friends ...

To my friends who were sensitive enough to notice that I was in need of help (as if it was not obvious enough), I thank you very much. Although your help does not directly affect me but I was very glad that I was contacted to let me know that you are there to fully support me. :)

To those whom I have talked to already, you already know that I was really deeply affected by my recent predicament. What I can say is that I am better now. Not a 100% but much better than when I have not talked you guys.

Everything takes time and based on my own experience, for me it really does take a long time. I have been through this a couple of times so I know how to handle it. You may not agree with my methods but I am not really just an average Joe. I have been dealing with my own matters using my own way for many many years and if it works for me then it shall be.

The strange thing is that although I am a seriously a forgetful person, some things were not forgotten despite the lapse of time. Some things are forever etched into my mind. Mostly they are good but even if they are not, it will serve as a reminder that I must not repeat the same mistakes. The pain should deter such stupid acts to be repeated.

One must be able to get back up by themself else they will not be able to stand again. It may not be easy but Im sure I will be able to stand again. I cannot be defeated like this. Just you wait ...

就當做一個傻瓜愛上美女

I was browsing for an old song but just played whatever that seemed interesting. I used to like many of this guy's song because they are simple to understand and it seems that I have not heard this before and to me I think this is another beautiful sad song. The truth in simple terms and reality of what is happening when you have been friendzoned. 

張震嶽-只是朋友

我的直覺發現了妳的冷漠
我的聽覺發現了妳不誠懇
我們之間也沒有什麼承諾
為何我聽不下去妳的解釋
我和他跟妳的關係也許不一樣
妳和他

我愛上妳這句話說不出口
好想逃離難懂複雜的問題
看他自在輕易的讓妳高興
不想聽妳親口告訴我結局

妳和他在朋友眼中就該相愛
我離開
我想得到　妳的溫柔　而不是聽妳說他的一切
我的身份　只是朋友　要的不多　只想愛妳
就結束吧　這種想法　就當做一個傻瓜愛上美女
我的身份　只是朋友
看到妳快樂　我也甘心走開

Sucks to be a nice guy because they always come in last. 

Though I don't smoke but this is interesting

 張震嶽-路口

一個人走　無聊的路口　我還在做夢　以為你會喜歡我
我的希望落空　而香菸不離手　抽到我心很痛

兩個人走　我恨這路口　你說不愛我　放我在夜裡難過
連再見也不說　而眼淚沒停過　哭到我鼻涕流

愛情就是黑洞　扭曲我所有　我想要愛你卻迷失了我自己
真的分不出來　給的是不是真愛　遊戲　我玩不起來

我不想走　去你媽的路口　破碎的痴夢　丟到馬桶讓水流
本人依然沒救　而香菸沒停過　咳到我心很痛

深陷沼泥之中　沒有人救我　手機上都是你曾經留的訊息
你眼神的不耐　有如利刃飛過來　瞬間　我終於明白

一個人走　無聊的路口　我還在做夢　以為你會喜歡我
我的希望落空　而香煙不離手　抽到我心很痛　哭到我鼻涕流
不再為你　心痛

感情的污点就留给时间慢慢漂白

I think this song represents some things which I cannot express freely. I'm not able to explain to others until the point where they are in my shoe to see from my point of view. Of course, everyone have their views and I may not be right but that is how I see it.

 李圣杰 - 手放开

我把自己关起来只留下一个阳台
每当天黑推开窗我对着夜幕发呆
看着往事一幕一幕
再次演出你我的爱

我把电视机打开听着别人的对白
也许那些故事可以给我一个交代
你要的爱我学不来
眼睁睁看情变坏
人怔怔看情感慨

不能给你未来我还你现在
安静结束也是另一种对待
当眼泪留下来
伤已超载
分开也是另一种明白
我给你最后的疼爱是手放开
不要一张双人床中间隔着一片海
感情的污点就留给时间慢慢漂白
把爱收进胸前左边口袋
最后的疼爱是手放开
不想用言语拉扯所以选择不责怪
感情就像候车月台有人走有人来
我的心是一个站牌
写着等待

最后的疼爱是手放开
不要一张双人床中间隔着一片海
感情的污点就留给时间慢慢漂白
把爱收进胸前左边口袋
最后的疼爱是手放开
不想用言语拉扯所以选择不责怪
感情就像候车月台有人走有人来
我的心是一个站牌
写着等待

我把收音机打开听着别人的失败
哽咽的声音仿佛诉说着相同悲哀
你的依赖还在胸怀
我无法轻易推开
我无法随便走开
感情中专心的人容易
被伤害

I remember collecting a lot of his songs but not sure where I put them. Since I got nothing much to downlaod so I am going through them one by one and many of them seems to be old favourites and of course found some interesting new songs.

잠들고 싶어

Super Junior – 잠들고 싶어

[규 현] 그녀가 돌아오네요 미안하다고 하네요
익숙했던 그리운 그 손길로 어루만져요
[성민] 날 보는 안쓰런 눈길, 듣고 싶던 그 목소리,
다정하게 이젠 울지 말라네요

[려욱] 널 내 품에 안으면 사라져 버리고
눈물이 흘러 베개를 적시면
난 그제야 잠에서 깨어요
아침은 늘 이렇게….My Love

[예성] 영원히 이대로 잠들길 바래도,
여전히 그녀로 깨어나도…
다시는 꿈꾸지 않기를 바래도,
오늘도 그녀로 나는 잠이 들 수가 있어

[동 해] 그녀가 웃고 있네요 너무나 오랜만이죠
그런 모습 그렇게 보고 싶던 나의 그녀죠
[성민] 그녀가 걷고 있어요 어떤 사람과 다정히
내 가슴은 무겁게 내리 눌려요

[예성] 또 난 꿈을 꾼 거죠 식은 땀 흐르고
아파서 기억 조차도 싫은 꿈
난 온종일 무엇도 못하고
시간을 보내겠죠 My love

[규현] 영원히 이대로 잠들길 바래도,
여전히 그녀로 깨어나도….
[려욱] 다시는 꿈꾸지 않기를 바래도,
오늘도 그녀로 나는 잠이 들 텐데

[예 성] 이제 흐려질 만도 한데 그녀는 점점 짙어가요
[규현] 어제 꿈에서처럼 오늘 내게 와요 이제는 혼자 잠들지 않게

[려 욱] 영원히 이대로 잠들길 바래도,
여전히 그녀로 깨어나도….
[예성] 다시는 꿈꾸지 않기를 바래도,
오늘도 그녀로 나는 잠이 들 텐데

[규현] 오늘 그댈 다시 볼 수만 있다면, 그럴 수 있다면, 돌아오면….
[동♥ 해] 한번만 네 곁에 잠들 수 있다면, 그럴 수 있다면…
[려욱] 그대로 깨지 않고 싶어
[예성] 잠이 들 수 있다면….

English translations :

Super Junior – In My Dream

[Kyuhyun] She comes back
She says she’s sorry
The skilled hands that I missed caress my own
[Sungmin] The apologetic eyes that look at me, the voice I want to hear
Tenderly telling me not to cry

[Ryeowook] If I hold you in my arms you disappear and
The tears flow and my pillow becomes wet
At last I wake up from my sleep
Morning is always like this… My Love

[Yesung] I hope I fall asleep forever like this
I wake up with her presence still…
Although I hope I don’t dream again,
Today too it seems I fall asleep with her presence

[Donghae] She’s smiling
It’s really been too long
I’ve missed that expression, she’s my girl isn’t she
[Sungmin] She’s walking away
Embracing another person
My chest feels like it’s being crushed under a heavy weight

[Yesung] I’m dreaming again, right?
Cold sweat runs down me
It’s hurts, it’s a dream of things I hate to even remember
I can’t do anything all day long
We’ll spend time together, right my Love

[Kyuhyun] I hope I sleep forever like this
I wake up with her presence still…
[Ryeowook] Although I hope I don’t dream again,
Today too it seems I fall asleep with her presence

[Yesung] Everything is becoming cloudy but her image is getting stronger
[Kyuhyun] Like in yesterday’s dream, today she comes to me
Now I don’t sleep alone

[Ryeowook] I hope I sleep forever like this
I wake up with her presence still…
[Yesung] Although I hope I don’t dream again,
Today too it seems I fall asleep with her presence

[Kyuhyun] If I could only see you again today, if I could do it again, if you came back again….
[Donghae] If you slept by my side just once more, if it happened again…
[Ryeowook] I wouldn’t want to wake up
[Yesung] If I could fall sleep…

You Jelly?

After a few months of using stock ICS, the battery consumption was so bad that I had to charge at least twice per day. That is insane and I decided enough was enough. Based on reviews and inputs from my fellow SGS2G users, there are only a couple of very good ROMs to use. I looked around and found that there are developers working on Jelly Bean ROMs instead of ICS now so I searched some more and found the highest version there is and flashed it this morning.

Since its an AOKP (Android Open Kang Project) ie a modded AOSP (Android Open Source Project), this means that the standard Samsung programs that takes too much resources have been removed and have been replaced with alternatives which are better and at the same time saves you some juice.

Based on my usage today, I think I can get back to 1 day charge again ^_^ However, learning the new menus and finding my usual settings took me the rest of the day. Some really took some time finding because I was really not used to the new menus and namings.

I don't really understand why they would build in a function for the "user's" sake but keeps on changing how it is used everytime they come up with a new version @_@" I meant the built in screenshot function. You get used to one and then they change it. I find it annoying to be honest...

 The homescreen now allowing you to choose what you want to access directly. I like the weather widget there which was built in.

 For those who don't know, you can get this easter egg by pressing the version number continiously for 3 times. I find this the most interesting one so far :)

An extra feature this time too if you touch the jelly bean long enough. Your screen will be exploded with these jellies which you can fling around just for the fun of it.

Flashing this ROM for the first time after a quite a long break was unfamiliar at first then I remembered that there were instructions which I did not follow to the dot which caused my phone to be stuck at the bootscreen. It was easily fixed and I got my in working condition in about 2 hours as I had to restore the apps. I showed off to my colleagues who had same phones that I am already running Jelly Bean =D

I can now only be with you in my dreams

Its finally a reality... After so many years, the cat is finally out of the bag and it was really really strange. I never imagined that it would happen this way. At least its much better than I had expected. I thought I would react badly to it but I am more calm than ever. You really do know how to handle situations. Too bad your reading of people is still very poor.

It was a great chat. You taught me many things and I revealed secrets which many would like to know. Interesting what a couple of hours of chat would end up. I think it was really OK because I have already been mentally prepared for this ages ago. But the stupid idiot which resides in me refused to see the logic. Today it has been proven and I really do know it that well.

Will I ever dream of you again? I wonder how it will be? Will it still be as exciting as before? Come to think of it again do I want to dream of you? We shall see, my special friend :)

Damage - Forever

CHORUS
I'll be loving you forever
Deep inside my heart you'll leave me never
Even if you took my heart and tore it apart
I would love you still forever

You are the sun, you are my light
And you're the last thing on my mind
Before I go to sleep at night
You're always 'round when I'm in need
When trouble's on my mind
You put my soul at ease

There is no one in this world
Who can love me like you do
So many reasons that I
Want to spend forever with you

We've had our fun, and we've made mistakes
But who'd have guessed along that road
We'd learn to give and take
It's so much more than I could have dreamed
You make loving you
So easy for me

There is no one in this world
Who can love me like you do
That is the reason that I
Want to share forever with you

CHORUS
(And girl I pray you leave me never)

BRIDGE:
Coz this is a world
Where lovers often go astray
But if we love each other
We won't go, won't go that way
So put your doubts aside
Do what it takes to make it right
Coz I'll love you forever
No one can tear us apart
CHORUS (TILL FADE)

  Hmm ... you do occupy a very big portion of my heart :)

나는 안 되는 거니 정말 안 되는 거니

Its interesting how some songwriters are able to combine words and express things  in a much better way. It really takes time to appreciate and understand them. I think this song is a very good match with the drama and it makes a lot of sense.

Tim - 안되니

슬픔에 지쳐 눈믈 흘릴 때
너를 위해 함께 울어줄 사람
이 세상 모두너를 등짛 떼조차
먼저 너의 손을 잡아줄 사람
언제라도 부르면 한걸음에 달려갈
그 사람이 나란 걸 왜몰라
Reff :
나는 안 되는 거니 정말 안되는 거니
매일 너를 웃게 할텐데
마지막 그 날까지 너의 곁을 지켜줄 단 한사람
그 사랑이나일 순없는 거니
아픔에 겨워 비틀거릴 때
너의 상처까지 안아줄 사람
먼 곳언을 보며 나를 울릴 울리때조차
오직 너 하나만 바라볼 사람
너를 위해서라면 다 잃어도 행복할
그 사람이 나란 걸 왜 몰라
**Back to Reff
갖고 싶은 사람아
죽을 만큼 닿고 싶은 사람아
힘겨워도 견딜 수있었던 건
니가 내 곁에 있어서 사랑할 수있어서
기다려도 되겠니 바라봐도 되겠니
니가 내게 오는 날까지
나의 마지막 순간 눈물처럼 떠올릴 단 한 사람
내 사랑이 돼주면 언되겠나
내 곁에 머물면 안되겠니

The English translations :

Tim - Can't it be me?

When you cry because of sadness,
The one who could cry together with you
Even when everyone in the world turns their back on you
The first person who hold your hand
Whenever you call, will rush into you
Why don’t you know that person is me
Reff :
Can’t it be me? Really can’t it be me?
Everyday, I would make you smile
The one who will watch over you until the end
Can’t that person be me?
When you stumble because of pain
The one who hold you from being hurt
The one who embraces your scars
The one who only looking at you
The person who would happy even lose everything for you
Why don’t you know that person is me
**Back to Reff
You are the one I want
You are the one I really want to reach
The reason I was able to go through the hard times
Because you were with me, because I could love you
Can I wait for you? Can I see you?
Until the day you come to me
Like the tears of my last moment, you are the only one I remember
Can’t you be my love?
Can’t you stay with me?

 I am asking this question too much ...

被夢想分隔兩地 用思念熬過孤寂 不停 想妳

Im not sure how old this song is but it captured my attention even before the chorus. Its very rare that a song is able to do this to me because I will need some time to digest the meaning. When I read through the whole song, it was really wonderful and hence I recommend it to you :)

Tank & Ella - 懂我再愛我

T：以為你會開心 用飛奔傾訴愛意 來我懷裡
為什麼你不靠近 憤怒地關上自己 淚眼迷離
用多少心 才帶來的驚喜 我還想說 妳不聽

E: 你懂我再愛我 就不會傷害我
在幸福的路口 被失望壓垮了
你懂我再愛我 我就不會病了
害怕聽見許諾 不知道能相信什麼

T: 從前妳很開心 我丟掉苦悶自己
微笑 學妳 (E: 微笑 學我)
被夢想分隔兩地 用思念熬過孤寂
不停 想妳 (E: 不停想你)
我將感情先堆滿在心底 打拼榮耀獻給你

E: 你懂我再愛我 就不會折磨我
被回憶勒住了 痛到虛脫沉默
你懂我再愛我 我就不會怕了
好想勇敢走過 像從前最擅長快樂

E: 你懂我再愛我 就不會折磨我
被回憶勒住了 痛到虛脫沉默 (T: 痛到虛脫沉默)
你懂我再愛我 我就不會怕了
好想勇敢走過 像從前最擅長快樂
像從前最擅長快樂
(像從前最擅長快樂 像從前最擅長快樂) 快樂

 Its very meaningful to me because I would definitely want someone to be able to understand me well and catch me when I fall. It would be best that I will never fall again :)

Suicide ...

I recently had a series of long chats with someone who would fall under the category of equal to worst enemy. What I told this person was what I wanted to say but at the same time should not be said. Makes no freaking sense ... ei? I know what I am trying to do and at the same time, I really know that I should not. Walking a very thin line between life and death.

Relieved and worried at the same time for what I have said. This is driving me really insane. So close yet so far. Just a touch away but feels like a million miles away. Although I can basically catch what you think but I dare not think that I was 100% right because you are not a normal person to be reckoned with.

This has really affected me psychologically which in turn will affect me physically. My brain and heart goes into overdrive each time I think about this matter. I am scared to think about it but it never seems to be able to leave my mind. Like a gum stuck to your shoe and very hard to get rid off.

Only time will tell if what I have done is suicide or the road to glory.

Waking up too early

For some unknown reason, I am waking up too early everyday. Perhaps I have too much on my mind and it cannot be resolved when my mind is resting. My body don't feel right as well. Its a strange but familiar feeling, So familiar that its really scaring me now.

I find this song very nice and meaningful from a Korean drama which I just finished, 49 days.

Shin Jae - 눈물이 난다

니가 숨쉰다 니가 살고있다 내 가슴속에서
심장이 울린다 니가 걷고있다 내 가슴속에서
처음 내게 왔던 날부터 그리움이 되어 넌 나를 부른다
자꾸 눈물이 난다 시린 눈물이 난다
가슴 아파서 너 때문에 아파와서
니가 그리운 날엔 이토록 그리운 날엔
보고 싶어 또 눈물이 난다
목이 메인다 끝내 삼켜낸다 사랑한단 그 말
바람에 띄운다 멀리 보내본다 보고 싶단 그 말
차마 전할 수가 없던 말 긴 한숨이 되어 가슴에 흐른다
자꾸 눈물이 난다 시린 눈물이 난다
가슴 아파서 너 때문에 아파와서
니가 그리운 날엔 이토록 그리운 날엔
보고 싶어 또 눈물이 난다
자꾸 흘러내린다 니가 흘러내린다
가슴에 차서 가슴에 니가 넘쳐서
아픈 눈물이 된다 그리운 눈물이 된다
내 가슴에 넌 그렇게 산다
자꾸 눈물이 난다 시린 눈물이 난다
사랑하니까 사랑은 눈물이니까
너를 곁에 두고도 이렇게 곁에 두고도
못다한 말 너를 사랑한다

English translation

Shin Jae - Tears are falling

You’re breathing, you’re living, in my heart
My heart is crying, you’re walking, in my heart
From the day you were beside me, you’re always in my thoughts, calling me
Cold tears keep shedding, falling non-stop,
My heart hurts because of you and it keeps hurting
On days that I miss you, days like these, because I’m missing you
My tears are falling again
I’m choking on the words, even swallowing it, the words “I love you”
Launching into the wind, flying far far away, I’m missing those words you said
The words that couldn’t be communicated to you, becomes a long sigh and flows through my heart
Cold tears keep shedding, falling non-stop,
My heart hurts because of you and keeps hurting
On days that I miss you, days like these, because I’m missing you
My tears are falling again
The you that’s always been appearing right in front of me, is filling my heart, overflowing it
Becomes tears of heartache, yearning tears, you keep living in my heart like that
Cold tears keep shedding, falling non-stop,
Because I love you, because these tears are tears of love
Even if you were by my side and couldn’t say those words,
I really love you

Suddenly

Like most of the other songs which I like, its the meaning the lyrics carry determines whether I like it even more seeing that it has a good rhythm to it.

Kim Bo Kyung - Suddenly

아무런 말도 떠오르지 않았어
amuron maldo tto-oreuji anasso
너의 얼굴 다시 볼 줄
noye olgul dasi bol jul
정말 몰랐어
jongmal mollasso
내 마음속 깊은 어딘가에
ne maeumsok gipeun odin-gae
묻어둔 채
mudodun che
여지껏 그리워하며
yojikkot geuriwohamyo
아파했었지
apahessotji

돌아보면 미소 띈 얼굴로 날
dorabomyon miso ttuin olgullo nal
바라보며 항상 뒤에
barabomyo hangsang dwie
서 있는 것 같아
so inneun got gata
어지러운 이 기분에
ojiroun i gibune
홀로 밤을 새며
hollo bameul semyo
아직 남은 그대 흔적에
ajik nameun geude heunjoge
울곤 했지
ulgon hetji

이제 말해줘
ije marhejwo
내가 뭘 잘못했는지
nega mwol jalmot-henneunji
이제 말해줘
ije marhejwo
내가 부족했던 건지
nega bujokhetdon gonji

정말 그대를 미치도록 원했어
jongmal geudereul michidorok wonhesso
그댈 다시 볼 수 있기를
geudel dasi bol su itgireul
항상 기도해왔어
hangsang gidohewasso
이렇게 내가 죽을 것만 같은데
iroke nega jugeul gotman gateunde
이젠 그대가 내게 올 순 없나요
ijen geudega nege ol sun omnayo
제발
jebal

혼자서도 잘해낼 수 있다고
honjasodo jarhenel su itdago
너 없이도 잘해낼 수
no obsido jarhenel su
있을 거라고
isseul gorago
다짐하며 오지 않는
dajimhamyo oji anneun
잠을 청해봐도
jameul chonghebwado
니 말투 니 표정만
ni maltu ni pyojongman
또렷이 떠올라
ttoryosi tto-olla

이제 말해줘
ije marhejwo
내가 뭘 잘못했는지
nega mwol jalmot-henneunji
이제 말해줘
ije marhejwo
내가 부족했던 건지
nega bujokhetdon gonji

정말 그대를 미치도록 원했어
jongmal geudereul michidorok wonhesso
그댈 다시 볼 수 있기를
geudel dasi bol su itgireul
항상 기도해왔어
hangsang gidohewasso
이렇게 내가 죽을 것만 같은데
iroke nega jugeul gotman gateunde
이젠 그대가 내게 올 순 없나요
ijen geudega nege ol sun omnayo

정말 그대를 미치도록 원했어
jongmal geudereul michidorok wonhesso
그댈 다시 볼 수 있기를
geudel dasi bol su itgireul
항상 기도해왔어
hangsang gidohewasso
이렇게 내가 죽을 것만 같은데
iroke nega jugeul gotman gateunde
이젠 그대가 내게 올 순 없나요
ijen geudega nege ol sun omnayo

제발 제발
jebal jebal

Im sure not many of you would understand Korean so here is the translation :

I couldn’t come up with any words.
I really did not know I’d see you again.
Somewhere buried deep inside my heart.
I have longed and ached for you.

When I turn around I see the smiling face.
The face that is always there, behind me.
This dizzy feeling keeps me up at night.
Traces of you keep me crying again.

Tell me now, how was I wrong?
Tell me now, was I lacking?

I really desired you like crazy.
I always prayed that I could see you again.
I feel as though I will die like this.
Can’t you be the one coming to me now.
Please.

I told myself I’d be fine alone.
That I could do well without you.
I tell myself this as I try to force myself to sleep.
But all I can think of are the way you speak and look.

Tell me now, how was I wrong?
Tell me now, was I lacking?

I really desired you like crazy.
I always prayed that I could see you again.
I feel as though I will die like this.
Can’t you be the one coming to me now?

I really desired you like crazy.
I always prayed that I could see you again.
I feel as though I will die like this.
Can’t you be the one coming to me now?
Please.
Please.

 I think this will be my new ringtone for now :)

Halfway through working age

Seems like I have joined the club. It was no big event but I loved the time and dinner my friends spent with me on the eve, very thoughtful and filled with chocolate =Þ

Once midnight struck, I began to receive Facebook wishes which was very nice. Some are a little strange though, saying something like the whole community also wishes me and I don't even live near that area. Its great to be not forgotten as I received SMS from a faraway friend whom I once considered to be one of my closest friend. Thank you all.

I chatted with another faraway friend on Whatsapp whom I thought remembered my day as well but it seems she was just trying to get confirmation from me whether I will attending her big day. All the while I thought she would wish me but in the end we just had a fun conversation like old friends who have not met in a long time would.

 Seems like I woke up at the right time to capture this

Someone was messaging me at this time so another screen capture

Sigh, Im feeling old and my body tends to agree. During a recent trip, I was struggling to climb a few flight of stairs. Perhaps the excuse was that the weather was too hot (it was summer) and it took its toll. 30 years of labour some more before retirement. I wonder how will it be ...

Don't lose your Zing card ...

Unfortunately I recently lost my Zing card. So like any other customers, I had to call up the bank and Touch N' Go to stop reload and to block the card from being used. That being said, naturally the next question would be when would I expect to get my replacement card and do I need to pay again for it? To my utter shock, it will take 1 week to get my replacement card eventhough I can go the bank to collect ... It also will cost me RM10.

Thankfully because of my work, I know people who are in the department that manages cards which will be sent to customers. With just a call, I got my replacement card about 5-6 hours later =D Great news right? Yes in the sense that I do not need to queue up for single journey trip tokens anymore BUT to activate the card, I need to use it a tolled road ... To add insult to injury, I will be charged RM2 for reload =X Fine, I'm stuck between a rock and a hard place so I just had to bite the bullet and take the penalty.  So the nearest tolled road costs me RM1.

To get a refund on my balance of my lost card, I had to email TnG myself but that's fine still. I got a reply the next day but low and behold, an email kindly informs that they will refund the balance to my credit card but I will be charged RM5. Great, double whammy from both the bank and TnG.

So in total, the replacement card cost me RM18 of fines and other charges to get back to my normal routine. RM18 is more than 11 work journeys on the LRT. In summary, make sure you don't lose your Zing card ...

I like this new design though

Hong Kong 2012

Recently I had the chance to go Hong Kong for a product training. To take advantage of this, I naturally extended my stay and went around the famous attractions. Based on my research, you should be able to achieve this in a 5 days 4 nights trip. So that was how I planned out itineraries but of course, mother nature don't usually agrees with anyone's plans and you will have to adjust around her.

I planned to go to :
Disneyland
Ocean Park
Ngong Ping 360
The Peak
Avenue of Stars for the light show
Shenzhen (I just want to abuse my going-to-expire visa)

Seems like nothing much at all right? What you really require are good legs for all the walking, hopefully some good research on how to go those places and a thick face to ask those busy HK citizens. Of course the major attractions you will not have any problems at all because they have many signs and announcements.

In my mind, that's that BUT what is more important for me would be how do you tackle those places especially those that you need to queue up for eg what is a MUST do in Disneyland and Ocean Park? Strangely enough, I did not find much info on this probably because everyone's interest is different which is true in most cases or I just did not have enough time to do it properly. Basically, I would advise for visitors to attend all their shows. I particularly enjoyed Mickey's Philharmagic, Stitch Encounter, Space Mountain, Buzz Lightyear Astro Blasters, Jungle River Cruise and Festival of Lion King. My advice is to really watch the timing especially those with limited shows. In Disneyland, if you are an avid adventurer, I recommend a task for you to complete =D Visit ALL the different themed restrooms, most people would just want to do their business and get on with enjoying the park. I reckon if I was with my friends, we would most likely take pictures in them, something which seemed to be a tradition when we were still in school XD

Watch the weather for Ngong Ping's cable car, mother nature disrupted my plan by greeting me with a typhoon level 3 but thankfully I had other destinations and was able to spend the day accomplishing another task. If you are able to plan things REALLY well, you can squeeze some destinations into 1 day. I think that requires precision planning and in their mind they know exactly what they want to do at those places even without being or seeing the place yet. I like to discover stuff which are not advertised.

What's next? Food! There are so many recommended food places. What you really need to do is to mark down all the detailed places and plan your route. Oh yeah, another important point when looking for food, LOOK UP! Many of the food places are NOT on the ground floor, some are even underground ... I think in the end, I just managed to go to 1 of my researched shops. Local food places have wisen up and have limited or some not so correct but understandable menus in english. Places which don't have, you have to use your thick face to ask, what makes it worse would be that you look like a chinese BUT can't read any, yes, your's truly is not able to read chinese but to compensate, I can speak both Cantonese and Mandarin.

I think I managed to accomplish my tasks of visiting the places which I wanted to go except for the food places. Learned something interesting during the training which we should explore and of course get to experience some Hong Kong culture :)

 Gai Dan Zhai - literally translated as little chicken eggs but most shops use the term eggette

 Fried Char Siew Pau - this taste GREAT!

 Malai Ko - this cake tastes great too

 Fried char siew thingy - nothing special about this

 Ocean Park - good places to learn about conservation and great place if you love sea creatures

 Disneyland - yes, its raining just as I reached =_="

 Set A breakfast - surprisingly set A is basically the same thing in all char chan thengs

 Other sets which are non-beef

 Tried this egg tart just because of its shape :p

 Pineapple bun - unlike other pineapple buns, this bakery really put pineapples in the bun!

 Noodles for dinner

 Giant Buddha as part of Ngong Ping 360's attraction

 This meal is part of an expensive ticket to see what is inside the Buddha, the visit was NOT worth it at all BUT the vegetarian meal was awesome!

 Or Jien HK style - not bad

 Che Zhai Mien - the portion was big BUT the mixture of the ingredients was not to my liking ...

对面海 - literally means Opposite Ocean, winner of the Dragonboat festival at Sai Kung

Normal pineapple bun - these are like Mexican buns but the top are pineapple stuff

 The peak via taxi going up and via bus going down - the queue was so mad that I reckon I won't make it up the hill before nightfall

OK view - just outside a restroom area =_="

 Shenzhen side of the border - gives me bad memories of China

 I did not go out and explore what this place is famous for, its just a place for me to change train.

I took the train so much that I got this.

What are my advices for travelers? Install apps which can help guide you around, preferably those that do not need Internet connection. What I used (on Android) HKMTR by Gary Wang (not the official one from MTR), Discover Hong Kong by the Tourism Board, Mobile BusInfo by Studio Kuma, TripAdvisor's Hong Kong app and of course who can live without Google Maps offline?

Must get Octopus card BUT watch your spending, I think I spent HKD300 just to go around to all the places. Most of the fares are around HKD10 and around half that for short distances.

Wear shoes that won't kill your heels and breathable. Walking around can and will take a toll on your main transportation. If you choose to, you can get competitively priced shoes at Mongkok.

For places to stay, IF you have the money, its really worth the difference :) Else you are in for a culture shock and I do pray that you are not claustrophobic. 

Follow the queue, if you don't and you look like a Chinese, you are gonna get some sounding because Chinese (from China)  really love to cut queues ... For all their hectic lifestyle, surprisingly HK people queue up for buses and trains. In Disneyland/Ocean Park on a normal day, a queue can be anywhere between 15 - 60 minutes depending on the show/ride. This will affect even the most meticulously planned iteneraries.

Cash and credit card :p For me the food was quite expensive as each meal would cost me at least RM10+. Make sure you have the currency conversion memorized in your head because you will need it especially for shopaholics who do watch out for their money. It is really a haven for shoppers, so many interestingly priced stuff.