RM115 GONE!!!

I was totally shocked to find my credit roughly the same amount like before I did my topup about a week ago. So I tried to check on Hotlink's website what "my usage" was on. After a stupidly long registration process, I managed to view my usage statement. To my horror, I was charged RM115 for GPRS usage in about 20 minutes.

16-02-11 17:34:24 GPRS 00:00:00 Data RM2.00
16-02-11 17:31:57 GPRS 00:00:00 Data RM2.00
16-02-11 17:31:46 GPRS 00:00:00 Data RM2.00
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16-02-11 17:27:53 GPRS 00:00:00 Data RM2.00
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16-02-11 17:26:14 GPRS 00:00:00 Data RM2.00
16-02-11 17:24:32 GPRS 00:00:00 Data RM2.00
16-02-11 17:23:14 GPRS 00:00:00 Data RM2.00
16-02-11 17:22:35 GPRS 00:00:00 Data RM2.00
16-02-11 17:22:28 GPRS 00:00:00 Data RM2.00
16-02-11 17:22:22 GPRS 00:00:00 Data RM2.00
16-02-11 17:22:21 GPRS 00:00:00 Data RM2.00
16-02-11 17:22:18 GPRS 00:00:00 Data RM2.00
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16-02-11 17:22:07 GPRS 00:00:00 Data RM2.00
16-02-11 17:22:00 GPRS 00:00:00 Data RM2.00
16-02-11 17:22:00 GPRS 00:00:00 Data RM2.00
16-02-11 17:21:58 GPRS 00:00:00 Data RM2.00
16-02-11 17:21:49 GPRS 00:00:00 Data RM2.00
16-02-11 17:21:34 GPRS 00:00:00 Data RM2.00
16-02-11 17:21:34 GPRS 00:00:00 Data RM2.00
16-02-11 17:21:31 GPRS 00:00:00 Data RM2.00
16-02-11 17:21:24 GPRS 00:00:00 Data RM2.00
16-02-11 17:20:57 GPRS 00:00:00 Data RM2.00
16-02-11 17:20:52 GPRS 00:00:00 Data RM2.00
16-02-11 17:20:48 GPRS 00:00:00 Data RM2.00
16-02-11 17:20:43 GPRS 00:00:00 Data RM2.00
16-02-11 17:20:30 GPRS 00:00:00 Data RM2.00
16-02-11 17:20:30 GPRS 00:00:00 Data RM2.00
16-02-11 17:20:29 GPRS 00:00:00 Data RM2.00
16-02-11 17:20:22 GPRS 00:00:00 Data RM2.00
16-02-11 17:20:13 GPRS 00:00:00 Data RM2.00
16-02-11 17:20:08 GPRS 00:00:00 Data RM2.00
16-02-11 17:20:02 GPRS 00:00:00 Data RM2.00
16-02-11 17:19:50 GPRS 00:00:00 Data RM2.00
16-02-11 17:19:50 GPRS 00:00:00 Data RM2.00
16-02-11 17:19:40 GPRS 00:00:00 Data RM2.00
16-02-11 17:19:32 GPRS 00:00:00 Data RM2.00
16-02-11 17:19:21 GPRS 00:00:00 Data RM2.00
16-02-11 17:18:32 GPRS 00:00:00 Data RM2.00
16-02-11 17:18:16 GPRS 00:00:00 Data RM2.00
16-02-11 17:17:58 GPRS 00:00:00 Data RM1.00

If this is not extreme or insane, I really don't know what is. I won't turn on data usage unless I have an urgent need for it, which would be rare as I am quite stingy to be paying 1c per kb. From the above charges, it meant that I have managed to download a 1GB file in 20 minutes, eat your heart out Unifi or YES users.

A quick google search led me to this discussion on Hotlink's Facebook. At least I am not the only person who got this kind of insane charges. So I followed the instructions to try to post my comment/feedback at their page but what happened next PISSED me the hell off! No matter how long my comment/feedback was I would get :

We're sorry, your fault report submission has failed.

Please try again later.

Error Code:
E001

So that leaves me no choice BUT to post my sim card number on their discussion page and hope for a call. Naturally if I don't get a call, some form of escalation will be required.

Its so hot at night and now that I am so damned pissed, it just made sleeping almost impossible. FUCK!!!

To all the girls I've loved before

I had been feeling down for a couple of days and yesterday a good friend introduced me to a wonderful song which was really meaningful. Simple and beautiful.

Julio Iglesias - To all the girls I've loved before

To all the girls I've loved before
Who travelled in and out my door
I'm glad they came along
I dedicate this song
To all the girls I've loved before


To all the girls I once caressed
And may I say I've held the best
For helping me to grow
I owe a lot I know
To all the girls I've loved before


The winds of change are always blowing
And every time I try to stay
The winds of change continue blowing
And they just carry me away


To all the girls who shared my life
Who now are someone else's wives
I'm glad they came along
I dedicate this song
To all the girls I've loved before


To all the girls who cared for me
Who filled my nights with ecstasy
They live within my heart
I'll always be a part
Of all the girls I've loved before

The winds of change are always blowing
And every time I try to stay
The winds of change continue blowing
And they just carry me away

To all the girls we've loved before
Who travelled in and out our doors
We're glad they came along
We dedicate this song
To all the girls we've loved before

To all the girls we've loved before
Who travelled in and out our doors
We're glad they came along
We dedicate this song
To all the girls we've loved before

A sense of appreciation to all my loves. Though they may not share the same feelings that I have for them but they will always remain in my heart. :)

Auto pilot driving

Unfortunately I will NOT be talking about driving automation. It was said that if you drive on the same road everyday, your brain will not have to work much to get you to your destination because it will be similar like muscle memory. When to brake when going over bumps and change gear according to the speed etc.

I have been auto pilot driving for a few months and thankfully I did not meet with any accidents because I managed to brake in time before hitting the front car when I was not really paying attention. Like I said, I just need to drag myself to the car and I will magically be at the parking area near the train station or reach home.

I just got back from another auto pilot drive because I wanted to let my mind roam, something like a feeling that I just want to drive away my problem(s). Although I did not manage the latter but I did find it interesting that I could really go around driving and not really paying attention, it is of course being helped by the fact that its close to midnight and not many cars were still on the road. However, I don't recommend anyone to do so because its seriously dangerous.

I couldn't sleep yesterday night until it was VERY late and a phrase kept playing in my mind, "凌晨两点半, 你还在我身旁". It was really 2.30am then and I do really wish that I have someone who will comfort me. I feel that I have lost another friend, someone whom I liked to be with for various reasons. Even if you are not gone now, you will be gone in the near future. Another good friend moving out of the country.

张信哲 - 宽容

凌晨两点半
你还在我身旁
关上电话
我不想和谁再多说话
爱着你的我
认真听你说的每句话
凌晨两点半
你不在我身旁
讨厌自己
为何还要这样的牵挂
爱着你的我
无法隐瞒自己对你的想法
你说你想要找个宽厚的肩膀
问自己带你到什么地方
看着明天
告诉我你不会紧张
跟着我海角和天涯
我说我想要找个避风的港湾
谢谢你陪我到任何地方
你的宽容
还有我温柔的包容
没有泪的夜晚是天堂
凌晨两点半
你不在我身旁
讨厌自己
为何还要这样的牵挂
爱着你的我
无法隐瞒自己对你的想法
你说你想要找个宽厚的肩膀
问自己带你到什么地方
看着明天
告诉我你不会紧张
跟着我海角和天涯
我说我想要找个避风的港湾
谢谢你陪我到任何地方
你的宽容
还有我温柔的包容
没有泪的夜晚是天堂
我说我想要找个避风的港湾
谢谢你陪我到任何地方
你的宽容
还有我温柔的包容
没有泪的夜晚是天堂

Surprisingly this song was playing yesterday when I was on my way home. Such coincidence that I would get to listen on the radio the songs which I would relate to what I'm facing.

Feeling melancholic

What actually triggered the previous post was a news. Its hard to explain what it was, perhaps more like I don't want to explain/share it due to its conflicting nature. Maybe that is why recently I'm having giant sized headaches. ARGH ...

There are many things we would want to have at least a second chance but in reality there is no such thing as a repeat or second chance. No matter how they repackage/rebrand/rename it, what's happened have happened and what you will try to do is to avoid repeating the mistakes of before.

Sometimes you are given chances, sometimes you don't. If you have tried your best with your second chance but still failed, should you surrender? If you are were not given the chance then would you still try to beg for it? When should you give up?

Some strange people who have said that they will not give up suddenly disappears when they hit what seems to be a iron wall, which part of will not give up gave up?

I thought that I have admitted surrender but perhaps I was cheating myself because it was never the case it seems. I must really give up now because I never said that I will not give up and I am hitting against an iron wall now.

Anyways, perhaps due to her previous songs' impressions on me, I pretty much like this song as well.

黄小琥 - 重来

你是否爱过　
ni shi fou ai guo
你爱他多过他爱你的人　
ni ai ta duo guo ta ai ni de ren
你还记得吗
ni hai ji de ma
你是否爱过　
ni shi fou ai guo
他有种真命天子般的人　
ta you zhong zhen ming tian zi ban de ren
你还记得吗
ni hai ji de ma

相爱以后终于分手　
xiang ai yi hou zhong yu fen shou
分手以后又想重来
fen shou yi hou you xiang chong lai

如果能重来　
ru guo neng chong lai
诚实的去对待
cheng shi de qu dui dai
彼此都没疑猜　
bi ci dou mei yi cai
就没有理由分开
jiu mei you li you fen kai
如果能重来　
ru guo neng chong lai
回忆当作尘埃
hui yi dang zuo chen ai
心不曾被伤害　
xin bu ceng bei shang hai
就能无瑕疵地爱
jiu neng wu xia ci di ai
但是重来　
dan shi chong lai
却不能保证爱的成功或失败
que bu neng bao zheng ai de cheng gong huo shi bai
要重来多少次后才会明白
yao chong lai duo shao ci hou cai hui ming bai

你是否爱过　
ni shi fou ai guo
让你日夜忘不了的人　
rang ni ri ye wang bu le de ren
你还记得吗
ni hai ji de ma
我们曾爱过　
wo men ceng ai guo
不同种类不同面孔的人　
bu tong zhong lei bu tong mian kong de ren
你记得哪个他
ni ji de na ge ta

相爱以后终于分手　
xiang ai yi hou zhong yu fen shou
分手以后又想重来
fen shou yi hou you xiang chong lai

如果能重来　
ru guo neng chong lai
诚实的去对待
cheng shi de qu dui dai
彼此都没疑猜　
bi ci dou mei yi cai
就没有理由分开
jiu mei you li you fen kai

如果能重来　
ru guo neng chong lai
回忆当作尘埃
hui yi dang zuo chen ai
心不曾被伤害　
xin bu ceng bei shang hai
就能无瑕疵地爱
jiu neng wu xia ci di ai
但是重来　
dan shi chong lai
却不能保证爱的成功或失败
que bu neng bao zheng ai de cheng gong huo shi bai
要重来多少次后才会明白
yao chong lai duo shao ci hou cai hui ming bai

如果能重来　
ru guo neng chong lai
诚实的去对待
cheng shi de qu dui dai
彼此都没疑猜　
bi ci dou mei yi cai
就没有理由分开
jiu mei you li you fen kai

如果能重来　
ru guo neng chong lai
回忆当作尘埃
hui yi dang zuo chen ai
心不曾被伤害　
xin bu ceng bei shang hai
就能无瑕疵地爱
jiu neng wu xia ci de ai

但是重来　
dan shi chong lai
却不能保证爱的成功或失败
que bu neng bao zheng ai de cheng gong huo shi bai
要重来多少次后才会明白
yao chong lai duo shao ci hou cai hui ming bai
要重来多少次后才会明白
yao chong lai duo shao ci hou cai hui ming bai

Feeling very strange

In our life, we will have many people who are special to us. Some are of course more exceptionally special to us. I have been quite down after receiving news from someone who is truly special to me. In my head, I can hear myself praising this person's importance to me but I am perhaps just another person whom they know. Without going into specifics, I will just engrave them here :

You are special to me because you are the one and only person who could do it although some help was required and I was rather naughty but you still persist to bear with me.

You are very special to me because you pampered me as though I am the sun that warms your life everyday. I have not much recollection of you but the ones that in my head are vividly etched and often played back with a big smile on my face.

You are special because you are my first and will forever be highly regarded although I don't think I will ever command a mutual feeling.

You are extremely special because I felt like you walked out of my most beloved dream. I could never have imagined that I would really meet you in real life. I am however extremely sad that I am perhaps just a tlittle more than a hi-bye friend.

You are special to me because you were something I never thought I would try but life as you have it always have its twist and turn. I think we tried but perhaps this was what some would label, "Doomed to fail before it even started"

You are extremely special to me not because you came as a surprise but because you are now my everything. You mean the world to me but I don't think I am your number 1.

You people are the ones whom I have known almost all my life. Through thick and thin, many many years of ups and downs, twists and turns and yet remained together. Many people find it hard to believe that we still keep in contact so often.

You people are so amazing. Its interesting to meet people who banded together to be stronger and then to find out that they are from all walks of life and their collation of knowledge is really out of this world. Truly a special bunch.

You could be very special to me but sadly I have not met you yet :p

All of them have taught me many very important lessons in life. Many of which I really did not expect to be enlightened by them. Some events will forever be etched into my mind and heart. All of you are in my heart. Perhaps that is why it pains me to think of you sometimes. I have not done my best or I could have done better so I would be a bigger presence to you.

CNY pox

Just a day before CNY long leave, I was feeling feverish and thought nothing of it because I had to finish up some work. It was a Friday so i just had to bear with the fever for 1 hour less than normal days and go visit a doctor the next day if the fever persists. On Saturday morning, I was still not feeling well so I visited to the doctor after noticing some boils on my forehead.

At the doctor's, he asked me lift my shirt and took a look at my back before confirming it was chicken pox T_T Bad timing was exactly what he said when he sat back down on his chair. I was like @(#*&%+)@$&+@#(*$+@#*&% because I was looking forward to celebrate CNY and having a long leave.

On Sunday, boils started to appear all over my face and body :( I was too weak to face the mirror to check out my condition but with my fingers, I felt around and not liking it because it reminded me of myself more than 15 years ago when I was all pimply and riddled with acne.

By the time it was CNY eve, I was still out because some of the medication given to me makes me drowsy. The boils were getting worse and worse because I'm not supposed to burst them. That made me very grumpy when the effect of the anti-itch medication wore off. I particularly hate it when I need to take a shower, those bumps felt like dirt which you cannot wash away ARGH!!!

Although now 1 week later, I am feeling much better BUT I can't help to resist the temptation of not trying to peel away things that look like scabs because those boils have subsided and "dried up". To be honest with you, the big ones are REALLY hard to peel off because unlike scabs, its not really a dry lump of blood but its a plasticine-like scab. What's worse are those places which I cannot see like in my hair, my back etc

Oh well, at least I got an extended leave and will reclaim back my leave for CNY to be used for purposes later on. It seems like the predictions for my zodiac seems to be quite true and its effect was evident to me even before the new year. This year is said to be the worst year for my zodiac :( Heads up for more not so pleasent events this year.