My phone's new accessory =_="

Last week, we had a new system cutover and there was a change in process where I will need to login back to a system. When it was rolled out, all of had problems using or connecting to the system. My Blackberry had to be formatted just to reinstall the thing which did not work properly during UAT. I was very reluctant to use my SGSII to access the system as I wanted it to remain as my personal phone. However to ensure that I am able to carry out my duties, it has to be sacrificed and I installed the application. That was the easy part.

Over the weekend, there was a real need to access that system BUT all my team members either did not see the message or could not login to the system due to various reasons ranging from poor reception for data and did not bring their two factor authentication (2FA) token with them when they go out. Well, I am one of those who did not bring the token :p So to prevent future incidents, I now have a not so prefered dangling phone accessory, the 2FA token =_=|||

Looks damn fugly to be a phone accessory if you ask me ...

More sacrifices for the company and yet I am still poorly paid. Tunasingh betul ...

I like these

Just finished watching quite an old series after getting to know about it from a friend. Not really good for my memories but overall its OK. Since its quite an old series, the links to download the OST were mostly dead :( Took me quite some time to find a live link and got the songs. Some seems to be tailored for the drama which is a little more investment than some other country's productions

Also, what a beauty this is :

 Park Si Yeon

 Ippuda

페이지원

어쩌죠 그대가 또 생각이 나요 내 심장
이 한 사람만 원해요
ojjojyo geudega tto senggagi nayo ne
simjangi han saramman wonheyo
어쩌죠 사랑이 난 겁이나는데 마주보면
난 또 웃게돼
ojjojyo sarangi nan gobinaneunde
majubomyon nan tto utgedwe
나를 설레게 하는 사람 숨겨왔던 내맘
들켜버린 것 같아
nareul sollege haneun saram
sumgyowatdon nemam deulkyoborin
got gata
사랑해요 사랑해줘요 단 하루도 그대없
인 안돼요
sarangheyo saranghejwoyo dan
harudo geude obsin andweyo
그대에게 첫사랑 난 아니라 해도 나는
너무 행복해
geude-ege chossarang nan anira
hedo naneun nomu hengbokhe
보이나요 나에 사랑이 들리나요 심장이
뛰는 소리를
boinayo ne sarangi deullinayo
simjangi ttwineun sorireul
어쩌면 그 전부터 시작된 사랑도 그대일
지몰라
ojjomyon geu jonbuto sijakdwen
sarangdo geudeiljimolla
나를 꿈꾸게 하는 사람 내게 남은 사랑
모두 다 주고 싶어
nareul kkumkkuge haneun saram
nege nameun sarang modu da jugo
sipo
사랑해요 사랑해줘요 단 하루도 그대없
인 안돼요
sarangheyo saranghejwoyo dan
harudo geudeobsin andweyo
그대에게 첫사랑 난 아니라 해도 나는
너무 행복해
geude-ege chossarang nan anira
hedo naneun nomu hengbokhe
보이나요 나에 사랑이 들리나요 심장이
뛰는 소리를
boinayo ne sarangi deullinayo
simjangi ttwineun sorireul
어쩌면 그 전부터 시작된 사랑도 그대일
지몰라
ojjomyon geu jonbuto sijakdwen
sarangdo geudeiljimolla
나 아파도 기다릴게요 언제라도 그 어떤
모습이라도
na apado gidarilgeyo onjerado geu
otton moseubirado
내겐 멋질테니까 그댈 볼 수 있다면 그
걸로 난 충분해
negen motjiltenikka geudel bol su
itdamyon geugollo nan chungbunhe
보이나요 나에 사랑이 들리나요 심장이
뛰는 소리를
boinayo ne sarangi deullinayo
simjangi ttwineun sorireul
그댄 나의 첫사랑 내 마지막 사랑 날 사
랑해줘요
geuden naye chossarang ne majimak
sarang nal saranghejwoyo

Translation

Page One

What to do, I’m thinking of you again
My heart only wants one person
What to do, I’m afraid of love
But when I see you, I smile again
You make my heart flutter
I think my hidden heart has been revealed
* I love you, please love me-
I can’ t live a day without you
Even if I’m not your first love, I am so happy
Can you see my love? Can you hear my beating heart?
My love for you might have started way before
You make me dream
All the love I have left, I want to give to you
* repeat
Even if it hurts, I’ll wait- until always
No matter how you are, you’ll look great to me
If I can see you, that’s enough for me
Can you see my love? Can you hear my beating heart?
You are my first love, my last love please love me

Another song from the same series.

Hwang Ji Hyeon - 난 이별을 모를래요

주르륵 눈물이 흘러 스르륵 두눈이 감겨
이별이라 말하지는 말아요
보일듯 멀어져가는 잡힐듯 잡히지 않는
그대라서 난 오늘도 눈물만
난 이별을 모를래요 모르고 살래요
슬픔따위 없을거라
약속했던 사람 그대 아니었나요

사랑해요 우리 어떻게 헤어져요
들리나요 미치도록 그대 보고 싶은데
내가 어떻게 잊어요 그대를 지울까요
매일 눈물로 나 살텐데
지긋이 두눈을 감고 깨끗이 눈물을 닦고
그댈 향한 그리움을 닦아요
그래도 안되나봐요 사랑이라는게
잊으려 하면 할수록
더욱 생각나고 그리워지나봐요
사랑해요 우리 어떻게 헤어져요
들리나요 미치도록 그대 보고 싶은데
내가 어떻게 잊어요 그대를 지울까요
매일 눈물로 나 살텐데
미안해요 나는 그댈 잊지 못해요
여전히 난 그대만을 사랑하고 원해요
다시 사랑한다해도 다른 누굴 만나도
그대 같은 사람 없어요

Translation

Hwang Ji Hyeon - I don’t want to know about goodbye

Tears are falling, my eyes are closing
Don't tell me it's goodbye


You look close but you're far away, it looks as if I can grab you but I couldn't
That's why I am crying today

I don't want to know about goodbye, I just want to live without knowing that
Wasn't you who promised me that there is no sadness

I love you, how can we part
Can you hear me, I want to see you so bad
How should I forget you, how should I erase you
I'm going to live crying everyday

Close my eyes and wipe my tears
I am going to live longing for you

It doesn't work that way for love
When I try to forget you, it makes me yearn more

I love you, how can we part
Can you hear me, I want to see you so bad
How should I forget you, how should I erase you
I'm going to live crying everyday

I'm sorry I cannot forget you
I still love you and want you
Even if I fall in love with somebody else
It won't be anything like you

I like to enjoy my songs along with understanding what it means which normally makes me like it even more. Unfortunately for me, it seems that the songs that I like are sad songs.

Interesting queries

I was invited to have a lunch at a place which my friends intended to go not too long ago. But do to some unforeseen circumstances, we did not manage to go that restaurant. I don't think I would go there by myself because it looks expensive and indeed when I was browsing the menu, it was quite out of my comfort zone BUT since it was a vendor treat so I just needed to select what I want to eat =D

While waiting for the food to arrive, I went through a big stack queries and found that these were very interesting hence I would like to hear what are your answers to these?

Honestly, I would like to face the ocean just like how my college room used to be. Well preferably with a nicer beach which of course should come with beautiful girls in bikini XD

 Hmm other than my very close friends, I think most people don't know me ...

 Hohoho, exploration of all kinds of course. Go to places where normally I won't go and do the things which I normally can't do.

 This is a real tough one. If I can change it for the better, I would go to the past else to the future to see how things would turn out.

Contrary to what most people perceive me, I have not done much bad things so there are quite a number of things which I would really like to try out.

If you haven't guessed it by now. the place is Ben's =)

The food is not so great for the price that comes along with it. If you really want to try something different, try the vanilla peanut butter milkshake =D However for me, it still loses to Manhattan Fish Market's Chocolate Peanut Butter milkshake or Fat Boy's Thick Chocolate Milkshake

Let me know what you guys think about the queries, I handpicked these out of about 100 cards.

Choose your poison

I thought my landmark 300th post would be something interesting but its of hate ...

If you ask someone to tell you the truth, would you be expecting a gentle landing or a hammer to your head? More often than not, you should get hit by the hammer BUT this crazy working society will more likely create a soft landing for your 100 floor drop. I mean WTF is with that? You wanted an honest answer, you should know that it could go both ways so why expect only the flowery and supposed nice to hear things?

You gave me the opportunity to tell you truth so you got the cold hard truth from your's truly. You fucking asked for it and I am not supposed to tell you the truth??? Perhaps I should be sick of the truth and just fart lies all over the place and tell you its the fragrance of David Beckham and it will get you all the girls.

SIGH. Unfortunately, I think all companies will be the same. Stupid politics and dominance for power. Sounds very much like emulating something which is happening on a bigger scale to me. If you really want to progress, you must listen to the grassroots. These are your foundation. Perhaps they have forgotten that they were once down on the ground and really want to see the good for the future. Their focus now are on a different, perhaps more personal matter.

I can't even continue to type on this as I feel so sick of all this crap.

Please continue to enjoy your poison chalice of lies.

Still dreaming

I have been on anti inflammatory (to suppress pain and also to reduce swelling for my ankle) for almost a week and the night pill is drowsy. I was really hoping that it would KO me until morning and it did a pretty good job but while sleeping, dreams would invade my slumber and sometimes cause uneasiness. Since a young age, I believe I have a mild form of insomnia and I have learned to cope with it with a going-to-sleep technique. I would imagine a sky filled with stars, almost similar to what you would see if you are going to pass out. Well at least that is the last thing I remember before I find myself waking up in the morning.

I don't really what is in my mind that might cause my dreams because its definitely not about work. About other things, I have tried very much to not think too much. What I'm really thinking is when I am going to visit my friend in a far away country with my son. My initial plan was to go somewhere end May but then I realized that its actually winter there ... Even when its not winter its cold, so I don't think it would be a good idea and a colleague of mine was there during winter and she said that there is a possibility that some places might not be open due to the weather. September holidays is not that long but he can't skip classes because this year he is having some exams during that time. Sigh ...

Green Day - Boulevard of Broken Dreams

I walk a lonely road
The only one that I have ever known
Don't know where it goes
But it's home to me and I walk alone

I walk this empty street
On the Boulevard of Broken Dreams
When the city sleeps
And I'm the only one and I walk alone

I walk alone
I walk alone
I walk alone
I walk a...

My shadow's the only one that walks beside me
My shallow heart's the only thing that's beating
Sometimes I wish someone up there will find me
'til then I walk alone

Ah-ah, ah-ah, ah-ah, aaah-ah,
Ah-ah, ah-ah, ah-ah

I'm walking down the line
That divides me somewhere in my mind
On the border line
Of the edge and where I walk alone

Read between the lines
What's fucked up when everything's alright
Check my vital signs
To know I'm still alive and I walk alone

I walk alone
I walk alone
I walk alone
I walk a...

My shadow's the only one that walks beside me
My shallow heart's the only thing that's beating
Sometimes I wish someone up there will find me
'til then I walk alone

Ah-ah, ah-ah, ah-ah, aaah-ah
Ah-ah, ah-ah

I walk alone
I walk a...

I walk this empty street
On the Boulevard of Broken Dreams
When the city sleeps
And I'm the only one and I walk a...

My shadow's the only one that walks beside me
My shallow heart's the only thing that's beating
Sometimes I wish someone up there will find me
'til then I walk alone...

부족한 날 그대가 다 허락한다면

I was introduced by my friends to another series and although I have not finished it, I would like to get to know more about the songs in it. I think the main theme was too cliche so I was not really impressed by it. So in my search for the other titles, I listened as I read the translations to this song, 이영현 - 화답. Normally for a song title, it would be found somewhere in the song but this interesting song did not and at the end of it, I finally realized that the whole song was a question waiting for a response ie the song title. My hats off again to another Korean song :)

이영현 - 화답

언제나 손 내밀면 닿을듯한 그곳에 서 있을께요
기쁠때면 내가 먼저 환하게 웃어줄께요
이런 나도 그댈 사랑해요

바보같단 그런말은 하지마요
고마웠단 그런말도 하지마요
그대가 내곁에 있는것만으로
그것만으로 난 행복하죠

하루하루 견딜 수 없던 시간도
매일매일 지쳐가던 내 일상도
그대가 있어서 그대를 만나서
지금껏 견딜수가 있었죠

언제나 손 내밀면 닿을듯한 그곳에 서 있을께요
기쁠때면 내가 먼저 환하게 웃어줄께요
고마워요~ 이런 나도 바보같죠

언제나 눈을뜨면 보일듯한 그곳에 서 있을께요
늘 곁에서 그대만 바라보며
부족한 날 그대가 다 허락한다면

끝이없을 것만 같던 그 사랑때문에
왠지 나도 또 눈물이 나요

언제나 손 내밀면 닿을듯한 그곳에 서 있을께요
슬플때면 내가먼저 그대를 안아줄께요
고마워요~ 이런 나도 바보같죠~ 오~

언제나 날 부르면 들리듯한 그곳에 서있을께요
늘 곁에서 그대만 바라보며
부족한 날 그대가 다 허락한다면

As always, the translation :

Lee Young Hyun - Response

Whenever your hands out for help, I’ll be there to reach your hand
When you’re happy, I’ll be the first person who gives you a bright smile
This kind of me, also love you

Don’t say that I look like a fool
You don’t even have to say “thank you”
To have you by my side
Just by that makes me happy

The time I can’t bear day by day
And also the tiredness I felt everyday
Because you’re there, because I met you
Just like now, I can bear it

Whenever your hands out for help, I’ll be there to reach your hand
When you’re happy, I’ll be the first person who gives you a bright smile
Thank you, this kind of me looks like fool

Whenever you open your eyes, I’ll be there around your sight
I’ll always by your side, looking at you
If only you can accept the deficient me

Because of this never-ended-love
Why do I keep crying like this

Whenever your hands out for help, I’ll be there to reach your hand
When you’re sad, I will be the first person who hugs you.
Thank you, this kind of me looks like a fool

Whenever you calling out my name, I’ll be around where I can hear you
I’ll always by your side, looking at you
If only you can accept all the deficient me

I will have to admit that I have not gotten over some things and this does makes me think back, opposing to what I promised to my friends I would do. I do think lesser now but there are still times when I can't really control myself. Thinking back, my friends were really right, I have been fantasizing too much and its really out of my reach because I was never a priority just an in-betweener. Actually I have realized that I am not up to expectation much earlier but somehow living in denial for so many years because I just cannot let go.

Twisted

On weekends which I am alone, I would be so lonely. So last weekend I went out with my friends for a movie. In my opinion, it was a great movie. Hotel Transylvania, very recommended because I laughed for almost the whole movie.

While leaving the cinema, I did not really pay attention to the steps and twisted my right ankle. With that, I was bedridden for a couple of days. I really couldn't walk much because it was really painful so I tried to restrict my movements to go to the toilet only. The rest of the time I would just watch some movie or drama. I even rewatched an old movie which I don't think I will get bored of.

My time in bed also left me time to ponder on some questions which were posed to me but I chose to ignore or shy away from. I guess some of the advices which I did not take before were really good because when I am calm like this and have time to think about it, its really true. So I will be taking more advices into consideration and of course will listen better.

On top of that, an old question came back into my mind. Actually this was also asked by a friend. Perhaps I was not so calm when I initially considered about this query but now that I am trapped in bed, I am thinking of reconsidering this matter. There is more than myself to be considered and some of the things when I think back really scares me and I really dislike it. Would things really be different this time around? I think the only way to find out is to try it but to do so, its really not simple and it will definitely need a lot of change again.