Sign up for your DEATH!!!

For those who are not rich nor smart enough to get full scholarship for tertiary studies, you will most likely end up being indebted to an organization called PTPTN. The old financial charges rate was 3% per year but recently they have revised to lower that rate to 1% but only to those who have been contacted via snail mail and to sign the new agreement.

Those who have not been contacted by them can now breath a small sigh of relief because they have now updated their site and have included this contract conversion to be online, PHEW! However, by doing this, it also means that you are very much alive and kicking and should be doing what others have not done ie pay back. There would definately still be some who refuse to pay due to many reasons of which there is no need to discuss.

So my dear friends who have not done this conversion, head on over to the link provided and sign your death cert or freedom away because you will need to provide your latest information ie address, email and contact number. I would recommend you do so before they blacklist you unless of course you do not see the need to leave the country at all. You may check the the blacklist here.

SIGH more debts but hopefully it will really be lowered as their repayment are quite similar to ah-longs aka loan sharks. The amount you signed up to payback last time will roughly cover the admin charges per year and it really feels like repaying your housing loan =_="

Element replacement

Yesterday night my Element acted up on me. While using it, it would suddenly become not detectable and then a popup would ask me to format it @_@||| I got loads of data in there which could not fit anywhere else and it was my only repository. Sometimes after plugging it back in also would yield the same result and my worst fear was actually manifesting itself and started to let me know by giving out its dreaded sound, "tick tick tick". For those of you who don't know much about non-solid state harddisk, that sounds means that it is showing signs that it might be dying soon.

Knowing that I must make a backup of whatever that is in there, I have no choice but to secure another 2.5" harddisk. From a previous trip, I noticed 1 model that seems to be sold at quite a cheap price. Reading that line you would have deduced that I am on a shoestring budget. Actually I'm quite surprised by its value. For the same price of RM199, other brands are just offering 500GB but for Hitachi, I am getting a 750GB. By that virtue, my mind was pretty much made up unless I am able to find a 1TB selling for RM250 :p

Hitachi X Mobile

I suppose that is where you can stop having the value because to my horror, it was formatted using FAT32 ie it is unable to store files which are 4GB or more in size ZZZ. I had to reformat it to NTFS and it was a total bitch because it takes more almost 2 hours ZZZ. I started to backup my files from the Element to Hitachi and it has been running for more than 5 hours and from the indicator bar, its about 1/4 done. Hopefully by the time I wake up tomorrow, it would be done and I can be more relaxed knowing that my data are all having a duplicate copy.

My cousin is telling me that there will be something like our PC Fair in Singapore and he is coming to KL. So he might be able to help me get 1. I am now weighing up the offer and a 1TB harddisk is very tempting, IF the price is right, you can bet that I will be owning 1. Fingers crossed.

Can't you just FUCKING listen???

Just because you are more senior, you think you know everything? There are many things that you don't know and there are even more things that I don't know. So what I know may be something which you don't know so hearing me out might not be such a bad thing after all. This is because I have always listen to what you say does not mean that I agree with what you are saying so I voice my opinion. If you want to reject and it does not concern me, I don't fucking care BUT if it involves me, you can sure bet that I will not take it lying down if its not what I can accept.

You logic is not absolute because the world was proven NOT to be flat, the Earth is NOT the center of the universe, you cannot kill yourself by holding your breath etc etc etc. If they experts who have been doing their job for 20 years or more telling you that something should not be done, he/she must have their experience to back it up with. Yes, if you want it to be done, they will do it BUT they are telling you upfront that you will face problems and yet you insist that you want to proceed then its your call and in my words, "Your funeral".

I would say that I am hard headed as well but I will listen to logic and accept reasons. Just because you want logic to be truth does not mean that it can be applied to the real world. I would also want to say that I think I have been doing an excellent job BUT I am not measured by my own ruler in this world, somebody else holds that ruler and tells me that I am not up to par. If you really ask me, you are not up to my expectation as well, falling quite some distance from what I have been told and expecting.

What I really cannot take/accept is the no manners. Only no-class people would do such a thing, hang up on a conversation which is not going your way. PFFT, the respect I had for you was immediately ANNIHILATED that very moment. mlm mlm to you too.

A very heavy stone lifted off my chest ...

The skeleton have finally escaped from its enclosed prison closet. Today my colleague finally dared up to ask me the question and I just answered bluntly. I would have prefered to announce it myself but its ok, at least now that its off my chest and I do not have the feeling of hiding it anymore.

I prefer to announce it myself because I would be prepared to answer questions to clear what they feared to ask before. I was rushing for meetings after meetings after meetings so I did not have more time to clarify with them.

Now perhaps during our lunch next week I can open up for questions and hopefully get them to understand what happened, at least what I think had happened. It doesn't really matter anymore. I just want them to be normal, no need to avoid topics. I love to chit chat with them during lunch or at least listen to their topics and perhaps chip in with my two cents. I hope that does not change.

My back hurts

For those who know me, I wear a crystal bracelet on my right hand which was supposed to ward off my longstanding problem of back pain. About a month ago, the string that binds the crystals together snapped and since then I have not been able to find a place to mend it.

Starting a few days ago, my back started to hurt again. There isn't much of a change since the bracelet broke but I can sense the pain building up from day to day. To my knowledge, lack of sleep do not contribute to back pain and I don't really slouch so I don't think I strain my back in any manner which is apart from norm.

However, there is a saying called, "Bend over backwards" and I think I have been forced into many situations whereby I was to ensure that a very difficult task is to be completed. Although figuratively, I am straining my back in that manner but it just don't make any sense for the physical pain. Stress buildup usually resides at the neck and my neck has been tight for quite a while.

My observation over the years tells me that if my back hurts in a particular way, I will fall sick for a couple of days. But this time its different from that kind of pain and I don't wish to get sick now. Anyways, now I am 得閒死唔得閒病 ... We still do not have enough staff to help out with all the workload and to make it worst, intake has been frozen because the company do not have anymore budget for new staff =_="

Perhaps its a psychological effect after I have lost my bracelet. If this is really the case then the power of suggestion is strong in me. Well the bracelet also calms me because when I need to think, I will play with it. Sigh ...

Could it be the weather? Shit, Im getting old and I can predict the weather now???

*Sticks Salonpas patches on my back

CHAMP19NS!!!

If you are not a football fan, your reading stops here!

For Scousers, you are now officially not on the FUCKING PERCH anymore. You have enjoyed your fucking drought for 2 decades and I hope it fucking continues! And one more thing, I really like your anthem, "You'll never walk alone". Why? Because you will always have 18 others losers to walk with you.

We are now officially the most successful football club in England's top division football. A record 19 times. I don't really have much words for this so picture spam ahead!

Rip off from ManUtd.com

That's right, we are now on the FUCKING PERCH!

SAF also reiterating it!

Live from England!

I think I would love an 18 short more because that's my favourite number, but 19 is the number this year!

That's a FACT!!!

Live with the FACT!

EPIC reverse psychology!

Yesterday was supposed to be a major milestone for a major project in my company BUT the cutover was not as desired and the Project Manager (PM) decided that it was not up to his expectation and called off the cutover. However over the prolonged weekend due to a public holiday, the team was able to find and learn more about their system's behaviour in real life environment. Thankfully with this failure, some issues which were unknown were found and some even resolved.

Today, in the so called post mortem meeting, he sarcastically relieved everyone from any fault by declaring that any of the company's staff is now given the super power right of "It is not my fault!". If you are the company's staff, you cannot be put to blame for the system not able to perform as per expectation or any errors that reared its ugly head. Instead ... its the vendor's fault. Initially, it was supposed to be true because the part which was holding back the whole project was discovered to be a system design bug or requires a heck of a tuning.

Further into the meeting, when the staff are more relaxed thinking that they are now free from any guilt of mistakes were sarcastically critisized by pointing out to him/her of what was wrong BUT later relieved of their so called mistake/error. Im sure that the person who was in the wrong would definately be hurting because my role as an independant party also could understand his ulterior motive of using that statement.

From a PM's standpoint coupled with his flair, understanding of the system and overall knowledge of the products under his care, I think this was a great way to critisize and motivate the team to do better in the next try. Everyone still have the fire in their eyes to continue the battle after more than 1 week of very little sleep. Most of the team slept very little over the weekend trying frantically to ensure that everything was OK to proceed. Everything was quite good except for the part where the system let them down tremendously.

This kind of leadership are rare and surprisingly common for those who studied overseas. Perhaps there is really something which you gain from paying all those extra dollars. The thought process and mentality when faced wtih difficulties are very much different. This is more than "thinking outside the box" concept, I would say that its actually another level up.

This makes me even more eager to want to get out of this "well".