Thinking back ....................

Sometimes our memories will flash back into our mind when we least expect it to. Well it happened to me just a few days ago.

Im sure we all have fond/good memories of our past. What came back on my mind was so sudden it really did caught me off guard. The time i held a girl's. How it felt, the feeling of not wanting to let go because it was such a great feeling, the sweat, and the surprising smell that is there. Thinking back i was perhaps the foolish one to say it was stupid/idiotic to not wash your hand after shaking hands with your idol or etc. Why? Because for me, that smell that was left behind was something that no perfume can match, well i hate perfumes anyways. Its really hard to describe, its sweet, its aromatic, made me had a feeling that i really don't want to wash it away. But then again, if i don't wash it, it may get smelly and i may not have the chance for another hand holding session LOL.

It was really an experience which i will not forget but sadly, it was also something which did not happen again. Perhaps it was really just my imagination or just a strange virgin feeling from that first time experience. I did however enjoyed my time and learned quite a few things from the hand holding sessions. No im not gonna reveal it, go experience it yourself :p

Of course there must be progress than just holding hands. Perhaps because i was again a virgin when it comes to kissing. I swear to God (if there really is One), the taste was sweet, i mean really like sugar but not overly sweet, just perfect. It was really and eye opener though it was quite rude to open your eyes so wide during kissing :p. Another thing which could not replicated, kinda sad and strange why good things don't always happen. But if everything was like the first time then you will not have the same appreciation nor have these kind of memories right?

The more i dwell into these memories the more i could not sleep. I was stupid enough to put my hand in front of my nose to see if i could relive those experiences, but of course it did not smell like anything. Crazy thoughts filled my mind and wasting my sleep time since i don't get much sleep time anymore as i have to wake up early to go to work now. Something like how the saying goes, "You leave house before the sun rises and only returns when the sun is set". Kinda pathetic and unfair to my young family. There is no use in dwelling in the past, i have beautiful wife and son to enjoy my life now, why not create more good memories so that i can relive them when im more free in the future :p

Memories are to be relived not to live in :)