The 1 year that made me a bad statistics

Im known to have bad memory, especially with dates. Facebook now helps me with birthdays, my mobile phone with all my contacts, a list on my office table for IOUs (list of work to be completed), my Lotus Notes Calender for accepted meetings and etc.

Some dates however are etched into my brain, A's birthday, J's birthday and her house phone number, J's (another one) birthday and even how to get to her old house which i went a couple of times almost 10 years ago, C's birthday. Sorry to my guy friends though, i don't remember 90% of you guys not that you guys are not important to me but somehow it just refused to be saved into my memory. However, many fond memories are always playing in my mind where there is a trigger.

We tend to want to put bad things past us and not remember it but this is something which i really want to erase from my mind if its even possible. Sadly though, this date was unwillingly etched into my mind. Thought most of the day i was occupied with packing up things from the old house to move to the new, my mind cannot seem to want to shut out what i do not want to think. In fact, i did not get much sleep, though i could fall asleep but i would be suddenly awaken though i cannot keep my eyes open. It never got out of my system even now at the time of writing this.

I cannot remember the things i want to remember and instead my mind is filled up with unwanted ones. From part time frown degraded to full time frown and not being able to smile properly. Expecting more bad news soon but its already expected so there will be expected reaction from myself.