ARGHHHH My Hair!!!

Some of you might not know, i have cut my precious long hair :( I had several vouchers from a hair salon and decided to let the stylists there give me advice on how i can style my hair + haircut of course :p Naturally, the haircut would cost less than the voucher's value so the shopkeeper tried to upsell their services. To be honest, it would be a very very rare sight to catch your's truly inside a salon to get his hair done, so i took the shopkeeper's advice to do some scalp treatment to supposedly help my hair growth. After discounting the voucher's value, this whole ordeal set me back almost RM100.

The stylist told me that my hair quality is not suitable for long hair styles :( Long hairs are too heavy and hence makes my hairstyle flat. Sigh goodbye to my adventures with long hair. Anyways, after trimming here and there to bring the length down to almost school children length. He advised me to style my hair with wax or the like to make it look more volumous and modern :D

So i went out and get the now popular muvin' rabbah (Moving Rubber by Gatsby). Try as i may, i could not get back the style which the stylist showed me :( Not to say that im spending extra time styling my hair but i seem to be having different style almost everyday @_@ Still not able to find a certain style which i like or able to replicate easily. The more i style the more pathetic i find my hair count to be. I can't lower down my head to face anyone as its REALLY REALLY thin.

More than 2 weeks and counting, i am still not very used to using this wax thingy. I like the flexibilty of being able to still style it later in the day but having no specific hairstyle that i like, i just go with the flow and leave it be with what my fingers is able to mess with my hair. Most of the time it looks like a pile of grass being blown by wind from all directions ie hyper messy sadly its NOT the out of bed look though =_=

That is why i can't update here nor facebook with pics of my new hairstyle :(

SCV Reporting for duty

Today marks a new chapter in my working life (kinda). I requested for a transfer to another unit which i have no knowledge/experience about, why? To make sure my ass is covered and not be eliminated from the payroll of the company.

I have pre-arranged for movers, telephone extension to be moved to my new location and my laptop settings to be done today. I had my breakfast as usual and at about 9am, i started to move my things onto the trolley. To my disappointment i had to make at least 2 trips because the trolley could not carry all my things :( , to make things worst, i had pick a broken one =_="

To make a great day even better was to spill all my things about 2 meters away from reaching my desk due to the broken trolley =_=||| Embarrassment on my first day at work, luckily the boss was not around *breathes a sigh of relief*. I actually know about half of the team there as some of them were previously stationed on my floor, sadly though only 1 came to my aid to help me pick up my things. Oh well, i guess they are really busy, the colleague who helped me was actually on her way out for a meeting.

When the mover finally came, only my cabinet was left to be moved, it has wheels so its nothing too heavy or hard to move at all. A colleague exclaimed that, "Wow, simple task, just to move a small cabinet". I packed up my laptop and some other things and made my last trip down to my new office (43rd to 6th floor).

After setting up my things, i looked around. Time after time, everyone was just facing their monitor and doing their own things, almost not talking to each other. When the boss finally came in and order things that he needs to get done, then only the others were more chattery. I made more adjustments and arrangements to my new desk before heading back up to my old office for a "farewell" party.

Like the usual events minus the camera, everyone enjoyed the food. Perhaps everyone like me was very hungry due to the morning shower and cold aircon. Breaking the tradition of having a speech first before eating, everyone had their fill before my lousy non-prepared speech to thank everyone for their kind and warm treatment akin to family relationships, at least that was how i felt :)

At about 3pm, i got my first task. To prepare a report for my boss for his short session with the COO. Well i guess that is what a worker who sits at what seems to be secretary's desk would have to do :p Prepare a 3-4 slide powerpoint presentation about (oh yeah, this is the new nature of what im doing now) in layman terms about <2> and find out the possible reasons for them. I gave my best shot of coming up with something easy and not crowded with info, draft 1 passed with some minor changes. Time to research the possible reasons part, as i thought would be a pain in the behind. Working with people who are about to retire or think that their info are for their own consumption makes my research a run around. Tried my best to eek out info from friends and got an idea to meet another group of people who are supposed to be the know-it-alls but it was already 5.30pm. Knowing the people in this company, i would be wasting my time to go to them then.

Back to my desk i went and my boss asked for updates, i got nothing much and looking at the time, he understands my difficulty. Usually i would leave on time but first on the job, i better leave a good impression of not being like a lazy bum who leaves on time. I hung around until about 6pm and went home with another colleague who also walks to the LRT.

A bumpy first day but let's just hope the days would just get better in the future. *fingers crossed!*

Windstruck-ed

Over the weekend, i was Windstruck-ed. Yeah another one of those crazy phases to go and hunt for something. This time its about Korean movies. After Sex and Zero 1 and 2, i was obsessed in wanting to watch more Korean movies. Not knowing what other titles are good, naturally one would Google in this day and age. So after checking several forums, the titles which were repeated over and over again would be added to my list of movies to download.

Windstruck was one of the few movies which was almost always on the top 3 of many people's list. After i managed to get my hands on it, i watched it and i got to say, its a very good love story with its ups and downs, totally toying the audience's emotions, well i may be exagerating coz im emo so im easily toyed :p Maybe im just a fool for sappy love stories.

I wanted so much to screen capture some scenes as i find in some angles the main actress looks very similar to a friend but the result of the screen capture is just a black screen :( She denies it of course after seeing the poster of the movie but it really reminds me of her when she was in primary school, not that she has changed much since then.

Also, what is interesting is that this movie have songs from 3 languages, Korean naturally, English for the opening title (Knocking on heaven's door) and a very very beautiful Japanese song. I have got this song on my harddrive after getting a folder full of unnamed Japanese songs from a colleague, listened to it many times but never really know what is the title for it, now i do :)

X Japan - Tears

doko ni yukebaii, anata to hanarete
ima wa, sugisatta toki ni toikakete
nagasugita yoru ni, tabidachi wo yume mita
ikoku no sora mitsumete kodoku wo dakishimeta
nagareru namida wo, toki no kaze ni kasanete
owaranai anata no, toiki wo kanjite
DRY YOUR TEARS WITH LOVE
DRY YOUR TEARS WITH LOVE

Loneliness, your silent whisper
Fills a river of tears
Through the night
Memory, you never let me cry
And you, you never said goodbye
Sometimes our tears blinded the love
We lost our dreams along the way
But i never thought you'd trade your soul to the fates
Never thought you'd leave me alone

Time through the rain has set me free
Sand of time will keep your memory
Love everlasting fades away
Alive within your beatless heart
DRY YOUR TEARS WITH LOVE
DRY YOUR TEARS WITH LOVE

nagareru namida wo, toki no kaze ni kasanete
owaranai kanashimi wo, aoi bara ni kaete
DRY YOUR TEARS WITH LOVE
DRY YOUR TEARS WITH LOVE
nagareru namida wo, toki no kaze ni kasanete
owaranai anata wo, toiki wo kanjite
DRY YOUR TEARS WITH LOVE
DRY YOUR TEARS WITH LOVE
DRY YOUR TEARS WITH LOVE
DRY YOUR TEARS WITH LOVE

This was not the only sappy love story i watched over the weekend so i got a comment from a colleague from a different department asking me, "You look so tired, not enough rest ar?". Well i can't answer that i shed tears for almost all the movies i watched over the weekend so again my reply can only be with a smile :p Now that i have a trilogy of comedies so hopefully, there will only be tears of joy :D

Watched another Japanese movie which i completely forgotten ever since my colleague gave it to me. Cyborg Girl is the general name, if time travel is your thing then this one offers interesting thoughts about how going back in time and changing some events will affect the future.

Am i over-sensitive?

I don't know about other guys, perhaps there is a tad bit more Venusian in me than others which makes me more sensitive. It may seem to be a con to most but i feel without these emotions then life will be different from what and how i see it. Sadly though if its over a supposed limit then its really a bad thing, so this thin line is easily crossed by people like me.

Im sure that there are even lesser men who would shed tear when watching a movie. Yesterday i watched a Korean comedy (well supposedly since the prequel was a fucking funny movie) entitled Sex is Zero 2, the first hour i tried VERY hard not to LOL as to not wake up my sleeping family members, the second hour i wept like a crybaby in almost all scenes. At the end of it, i thought to myself, WTF? Its supposed to be a comedy, why the fuck am i crying my heart out?

Truth be told, i really felt for the main character's pain and sadness. Its not everyday that a hot and pretty girl would publicly announce that she is his fiance and is very loyal to him despite approaches from other more handsome, richer and supposedly better suited men BUT have a mother who opposes their relationship. I like to relate myself to a certain character so that i can really enjoy the movie, hence this idiot dwell into the mind of the idiot in the movie.

All his actions made sense, all his emotions felt and what his basis for a decision then carrying it out eventhough it really kills him inside. Though its a simple movie and most of the scenes are quite predictable, IMHO it does not deserve the rating which was given to it by those who watched it before me. If im faced with that kind of situation, i think i would make the same decisions and do what he did, minus the idiocy. This would include buying the 850k Won (roughly over RM2k) LV high heel shoes as a birthday gift.

What does all that have to do with being over-sensitive? By definition, i was overcomed with emotions which i should not be dealing with since its just a movie. I cried until my eyes are still puffy and swollen now.

Kyong-ah (the main actress) mutely whispers, "Oopa, sarang eh yoh!"

Eun-Sik stupidly accepts it and replies mutely also, "Sarang eh yoh!"

There was an absolutely fantastic meaningful song sung by Eun-Sik to propose to Kyong-ah, its gonna be hard to find since i really don't understand Korean at all. Great lyrics to make a proposal IMHO, yes it made me weep even more =_=". I will update the subtitles when i get home. Eun-Sik sang these romantic words with a not so romantic tone to an ever smiling ear to ear Kyong-ah :p

When i first saw you, I felt a glitter in your eyes,
Was i wrong to feel that way?
Your radiant smile made me a fool,
I know you will come back to me,
I will give everything to you,
We will be together forever,
And never be apart,
Because i love you and only you,
Because i love you ...

If i were the girl, i would definately be melted and touched by the above song :)

Sorry my friend, Zbjernak, i guess im really too sensitive like how you have described me.

Added 13/3/2009

I just rewatched Sex is Zero just to recap the story. I began to understand why the sequel was shot down so fast by the reviewers, almost all the plots, events, memorable scenes were all copied from the first movie. Everything was so similar that the sequel was just like a cheap rip-off trying to make a run for your money. Surprisingly though, i feel the sequel to have more emotional content instead of just idiotic comedy.

Get to know myself better ...

Got tagged in Facebook and found the results to be quite interesting.

Your view on yourself:
Other people find you very interesting, but you are really hiding your true self. Your friends love you because you are a good listener. They'll probably still love you if you learn to be yourself with them.

Yeah, as odd (and contradictory) i may sound, i do wear a mask and at the same time i hate people who are not themselves, so im a hypocrite and i hate myself?

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:
You are a true romantic. When you are in love, you will do anything and everything to keep your love true.

Many things are not in my power to do what i want :(

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:
You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.

Well my sixth sense do help most of the time on this matter.

The seriousness of your love:
Your have very sensible tactics when approaching the opposite sex. In many ways people find your straightforwardness attractive, so you will find yourself with plenty of dates.

I sure do hope so.

Your views on education
Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.

Study is fine, exams is a NO NO!

The right job for you:
You have plenty of dream jobs but have little chance of doing any of them if you don't focus on something in particular. You need to choose something and go for it to be happy and achieve success.

Dreams are dreams, reality is not as simple as what is being thought

How do you view success:
You are confident that you will be successful in your chosen career and nothing will stop you from trying.

Again, sometimes it could be up to luck, i have good bosses so far in my life :)

What are you most afraid of:
You are afraid of things that you cannot control. Sometimes you show your anger to cover up how you feel.

Doesn't mean im a control freak though.

Who is your true self:
You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.

Sigh, exactly what is happening now.

If you would like to give it a try, here is the link.

Trying to kill my stress ball

I suppose there is no avoiding the topic about global economic downturn/slowdown. The credit crunch is affecting more and more people and i being somebody not so financially secure is sweating over the matter now.

The situation though not known to the public, my company is gonna be doing a major shakedown for the IT department by restructuring and halving the workforce. It is no surprise that my unit is not found in the new structure since my boss is not a very like-able person nor is he popular among the other managers since he speaks his mind. Not a very good way to survive in a large corporation since you will most likely make more enemies than win friends.

Sigh, yesterday he told me to watch out for myself as his own place in the company is under serious threat. So again with no surprises, he told me to try to find another position in the company. Having been with the company for so long, its kind of frustrating to work with most of the people in here.

Frankly speaking, i have been applying everywhere since 3 years ago. Previously, i set my targets higher ie aim for bigger companies to try to keep most of the benefits which i am accustomed to now. At the beginning of this year, i had to lower my expectations and recently it was downgraded to desperation and i began to apply to almost everything i can find.

Times are so bad that the only company calling me up, told me that what im asking may be too much and IF im hired, the place they are going to place me is in Shah Alam =_=" I have a rough gauge of how much they are going to offer me, if its really that amount then im gonna be worse off than what im getting now. Add the travel and toll cost, minus the benefits and its gonna be on a hybrid contractual basis. Hybrid as in a contract worker BUT with limited medical coverage and EPF. I can't make up my mind and can only hope for better opportunity to arise with a helluva lotta help from friends trying to pull strings from everywhere :(

*SQUEEZE SQUEEZE SQUEEZE the living daylights out of my globe stress ball*

I went 苏 crazy

Yeah, im just copying his style of naming his albums. Why did i went 苏 crazy? It was another one of those nights (Friday morning 2am =_=") which i would just wake up for no apparent reasons. I went and check my torrent and the TV was watching my dad sleep. A program about 苏永康 (William So) was on, and i thought to myself, heck i lost all of his songs when my HDD died so i suddenly got the urge to re-collect all his songs which i liked and at the same time try to find more new ones.


苏永康、彭家丽 - 从不喜欢孤单一个

(女)想講不要走 偏偏好勝說我那在乎
面對世界我灑脫 一點不似太辛苦
但在漫漫長夜裡 摘下面具 便重因你再心碎
我所有眼眾ㄖ洬誚]你而狂呼
(男)原來自遠走 我方知道對你在乎
原能留住你心 我卻高傲不顧
現在夜夜唯後悔 但是現在像遲了一輩
我一句再 竟椰陬L窮痛苦

(男)從不喜歡孤單一个
(女)可惜偏偏孤獨一个
(合)我不懂得跟我 獨自對坐
原來沒有你 做人相當痛楚
(男)從不喜歡孤單一个
(女)可惜偏偏孤獨一个
(合)你有否想起我 若是再遇
求讓我悔過 可不可再戀過

(女)多想講你知 根本對你我最在乎
願說對不起 只可惜你已不顧
(男)現在夜夜唯後悔 但是現在像遲了一輩
我一句再 竟椰陬L窮痛苦

* (男)從不喜歡孤單一个
(女)可惜偏偏孤單一个
(合)我不懂得跟我 獨自對坐
原來沒有你 做人相當痛楚
(男)從不喜歡孤單一个
(女)可惜偏偏孤單一个
(合)你有否想起我 若是再遇
求讓我悔過 可不可再戀過 *

(男)當分開輾轉翻側思念更加多
分開方知清楚 我永不懂去再愛另一个
(女)從來沒這般清楚
Repeat *

苏永康 - 我愿等

這很難　縱然也覺得寂寞
一個人的生活回頭看也走了一大段
關於愛　是夜里不小心
回想起當自己跟自己的對話還沒答案

我不怕從前留的傷口記著愛的美好
只是我還在想　只是我仍嚮往
愛不就是應該跟熱戀戀自燃

所以別輕易把愛點燃
我不要愛了再說好聚好散
留著退路的愛情是一種期盼　我不希罕
一旦我再次把愛點燃
請讓我有天長地久的打算
每個人都有個心靈棲身的地方
而愛是方向

我也想　寂寞時有人作伴
兩個人的生活　歡喜和悲傷有人分享
遇見你　我該感謝天感謝地
卻也忍不住想你是否也和我一樣 放手愛嗎

我不怕從前留的傷口記著愛的美好
只是我還在想 只是我仍嚮往
愛不就是應該跟熱戀戀自燃

所以別輕易把愛點燃
我不要愛了再說好聚好散
留著退路的愛情是一種期盼　我不希罕
一旦我再次把愛點燃
請讓我有天長地久的打算
每個人都有個心靈棲身的地方
而愛是方向

這個人間在懂得
沒有了愛也枉然
只要你也做好準備
我會毫不保留
我會打開胸膛
我會把所有的愛全都傾囊

所以別輕易把愛點燃
我不要愛了再說好聚好散
留著退路的愛情是一種期盼　我不希罕
一旦我再次把愛點燃
請讓我有天長地久的打算
每個人都有個心靈棲身的地方
而愛是方向

苏永康 - 拥抱

如果感動來不及證明 今天為愛戰鬥的意義
也許手心的堅定 能更看懂真心
如果幸福來得及證明 而且想要給妳的安定
就讓我變成妳的唯一 苦或笑都有我陪妳

我會記得妳的好 和妳的笑 陪我度過每一分一秒
還會記得妳的擁抱 承諾的事我做得到
我會記得妳的好 和妳的笑 和妳說過要一起變老
永遠在我的懷抱 再苦再累都有我 依靠


如果感動來不及證明 今天為愛顫抖的意義
也許手心的堅定 能更看懂真心
如果幸福來得及證明 而且想要給妳的安定
就讓我變成妳的唯一 苦或笑都有我陪妳

我會記得妳的好 和妳的笑 陪我度過每一分一秒
還會記得妳的擁抱 承諾的事我做得到
我會記得妳的好 和妳的笑 和妳說過要一起變老
永遠在我的懷抱 再苦再累都有我 依靠

我會記得妳的好 和妳的笑 陪我度過每一分一秒
還會記得妳的擁抱 承諾的事我做得到
我會記得妳的好 和妳的笑 和妳說過要一起變老
永遠在我的懷抱 再苦再累都有我 依靠

Old favourites like 相遇太早, 愛一個人好難 and 男人不該讓女人流淚 are not forgotten. I was smiling ear to ear to be able to hear these hits again. Well maybe not all smiles since they are not so happy songs.