Trying to kill my stress ball

I suppose there is no avoiding the topic about global economic downturn/slowdown. The credit crunch is affecting more and more people and i being somebody not so financially secure is sweating over the matter now.

The situation though not known to the public, my company is gonna be doing a major shakedown for the IT department by restructuring and halving the workforce. It is no surprise that my unit is not found in the new structure since my boss is not a very like-able person nor is he popular among the other managers since he speaks his mind. Not a very good way to survive in a large corporation since you will most likely make more enemies than win friends.

Sigh, yesterday he told me to watch out for myself as his own place in the company is under serious threat. So again with no surprises, he told me to try to find another position in the company. Having been with the company for so long, its kind of frustrating to work with most of the people in here.

Frankly speaking, i have been applying everywhere since 3 years ago. Previously, i set my targets higher ie aim for bigger companies to try to keep most of the benefits which i am accustomed to now. At the beginning of this year, i had to lower my expectations and recently it was downgraded to desperation and i began to apply to almost everything i can find.

Times are so bad that the only company calling me up, told me that what im asking may be too much and IF im hired, the place they are going to place me is in Shah Alam =_=" I have a rough gauge of how much they are going to offer me, if its really that amount then im gonna be worse off than what im getting now. Add the travel and toll cost, minus the benefits and its gonna be on a hybrid contractual basis. Hybrid as in a contract worker BUT with limited medical coverage and EPF. I can't make up my mind and can only hope for better opportunity to arise with a helluva lotta help from friends trying to pull strings from everywhere :(

*SQUEEZE SQUEEZE SQUEEZE the living daylights out of my globe stress ball*