Acer X203H Happy then SAD ...

I have finally managed to buy a LCD monitor, not my first choice nor preference but beggars can't be choosers. Best bang for buck, the Acer X203H a 20" widescreen LCD with DVI, speakers, 16:9 and 10000:1 contrast ratio. With some help from a friend's friend, i managed to lower the price shown for retail. Friendly and knowledgeable guy, if in future i have any PC related things to buy, i will be sure to seek him.





Never liked Acer since it existed but in this case i really have no choice, with my wallet filled with only 8 pieces of Rm50, that is the max i can fork out for a LCD. The speaker is at the back so not gonna expect much sound from it. One down side to this purchase is that it has a dead pixel, i was told that it must have 15 dead pixels then only its eligible to claim for warranty? :(

Sometimes i really think im cursed, as soon i as i have setup and configured the PC with relevant softwares, the HDD died!!! I fucking flipped out!!! NIAMA CCB, just when i just settled down to enjoy a long dormant PC, it just fucking stopped working. To make matters worse, that was my biggest HDD, really KNNCCB!!! Fortunately though, i did not have much data on it, unfornately though i have just lost a 120GB HDD. ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!

Although the prices of storage are crashing worse than the global stock market, i still can't see where i can squeeze enough money to buy another new HDD. This coupled with my lazyness to reinstall everything again. Maybe, just maybe if and when i have shifted to my new house, i might want to upgrade this machine and install it with Vista Ultimate SP1, which i got from a Microsoft event quite some time ago.

After struggling the whole Sunday evening to find another HDD to replace the dead one and the tedious work of reinstalling ALL the things which i had configured nicely JUST THE DAY BEFORE, here i am typing in this entry. Fingers crossed that this HDD will last me until i can move into my new house.

I r enjoice surping wi ploxy

All the mistakes above were intentional. I am truly happy that i am now able to surf so much faster than my normal stimx connection. Just found out about using proxy to achieve great speed. To prevent the proxy from being shutdown, i will have to refrain from downloading movies (non-torrent) which i really would love to do now. Oh well, at least i can get page loaded as fast as when my office connection is perfect, else i will have to wait close to 1 minute for a page load. How do i know this? I play a game which have a certain time limit to things so prior to today, i can just watch in agony as those time limits ticked away, wasting away my investments in the game. Hopefully this proxy will still work tomorrow as it will be time again for me to continue in my that game.

Works very well with facebook too. Some flash games in there takes ages to load but with this proxy, its almost as fast as when i was in the company where i did my industrial training. Pages loads almost instantaneously, i had quite a hard time adjusting to this sudden influx of speed :p

I suppose there are pros and cons to things and the downside to this fast proxy is that is really dislikes blogspot's new post page. Login page is fine, but dashboard onwards is deteriorated into a lame html page no matter how many times i refresh it, so im posting this with no proxy. It doesn't really matter as i just need to type in everything and publish this before i go back to the proxy and finish my night surfing.

In the process of enjoying this, i was also introduced to a cool extension for Firefox, Multiproxy Switch. With this i can have a good list of a few proxies and switch between them if the current one is not working. The catch about this extension is that it will only work for those directly connected so sorry for those who are on routers :p Not sure how the guys who found these proxies did it but i am VERY glad that they are willing to share it. Kudos and hats off to you guys.

I r really enjoice this ^_^

Bleeding without blood

As we all know the saying, "The pen is mightier than the sword", apparently there is an even mightier weapon, the tongue. Today i got another taste of it even before the sun rose. Its not the first time but its really getting to me :( Not a way that you want to start your day with, absolutely not, especially when your main purpose everyday is to provide and care for him.

I can take this kind of abuse at night (almost every night) before going to sleep because my memory is similar to RAMs, after shutdown, its deleted and no residue will remain when i wake up again in the morning. Im too tired to take heart of the abuse hurled towards me. I may be left speechless at times but his tongue is his and that is something which i have no control over, same concept as i cannot prevent you from your own thoughts.

I understand his frustration and where he is coming from BUT i am at wit's end on how to manage it. Gentle method failed prolly due to his lack of comprehension of the situation. The hard way always backfires and blow up in my face so its best i don't try that at all unless absolutely necessary. I think its not helped by some fucking assholes who go and spoil him, another thing which i have no more control now.

His behavior was exactly the same when i hit a mental block. Not to the extent of insomnia but enough to draw your attention. Mars' rule applies to kids as well? If the problem is not overcomed then will it really be dropped like adults would? Sigh ...

My heart is stabbed over and over again with a knife which does not have to cut open the skin to pierce my heart. Demotivated and drained of spirit to shoulder on and march on.

A not so related but wonderful song which i totally love, 王菲 - 半途而廢

要不痛快快地哭個夠
要不乾脆向他低頭
別再苦苦壓抑心裡的痛
昏昏愕愕愛過又算什麼
貪圖快樂等於墮落
你說一生不是為愛而活
別搪塞藉口 到最後反反覆覆忙忙碌碌
辛辛苦苦不知道為了什麼
半途而廢 你無所謂
少了自由怎麼海闊天空 真是 自作自受自憐
半途而廢 你不後悔 義無反顧
斷了退路 還談什麼幸福 你又何苦

Please bring forward share any logical and workable bright idea. :)

Eun-Sik's Proposal

After countless trials of softwares on my Vista laptop, i finally managed to extract the proposal song from Sex is Zero 2 ^_^ I tried to get the video but the clipped video is not showing any picture T_T

I have got the OST album and i must say i was bitterly disappointed to find that this proposal song was not included in it :( Hence my crazed effort to get it. Now that i have managed to extract it, i call it "Eun-Sik's Proposal" as he used this to propose to his fiancee.

I MUST forewarn you that his voice is not nice, his pitch may be off and you may not understand a word at all but its the meaning which it carries which is most important. So please do not blame me if your eardrums are hurt in the process of listening to it :)



What i tried to interpret from his singing :

Chongni Kikude Nong Bi Chaungt,
Homja Mane O He Yoh Dong Gayoh,
He Mai Gong Nyi Suruh Nai Ju,
Paburu Ma Deroso,
Hasidora O Ke Dewiheh,
Ne Mogunggoh Tte Bin Teh Oh,
Guii Ee Deh Uo Yong Ngo Ee,
Heoh Jiji Baaduri,
Naohji Kude Manu Sarang Ah Gi Temune,
Sarang Ah Gi Temune

The meaning of what he sung is as below :

When i first saw you,
I felt a glitter in your eyes,
Was i wrong to feel that way?
Your radiant smile made me a fool,
I know you will come back to me,
I will give everything to you,
We will be together forever,
And never be apart,
Because i love you and only you,
Because i love you ...

It is even more meaningful if you are able to see his actions, his naiveness (some may call it stupidity) is really legendary epic BUT i will be totally won over by it if i were a girl :)

No more a slacker

For those who might not know, i have really slacked off work for more than 1 year. Not that i don't like it and also not that i have much of a choice. The projects which i was supposed to be involved in are either put on hold, canceled, KIV-ed and etc etc etc. Some sources claim it to be down to office politics, managers jocking for positions to show how capable they are and disrupt another manager's project(s) and some claim it to be management decision, cost cutting measures (before the recession).

Yesterday just before i went home, i was informed ordered to monitor a task to be done by our outsourcing company. This task will start at 11pm and may finish as late (more like early) as 2am or more. Being a slacker for more than 1 year, i have got pretty much used to getting off work on time and just laze at home before i go to sleep. Since my demotion (in a way) back to being a junior (as i have to learn things from scratch again), i can't really refuse this but im OK with it.

To make matters a little worse, the location of where this activity will take place is in PJ =_= My mental map of PJ areas are as obscure as going into a dense jungle with no compass. Luckily however, about 1 week ago i went to a restaurant in the vicinity of where i was supposed to go, so i have a VERY rough idea of where the location of the building may be.

Me being me who dislike being late, i started my journey at 10pm after settling my usual duties at home. With at least 3 different versions of rough guides given by my colleagues, i panicked when nearing a supposed turn and then later found out that i had made a turn too early from the most elaborate direction given to me, i can't get back onto my previous road as there was no junction to do so. As luck have it again, this road was used when i went to the restaurant the week before, so i can vaugely visualize my general directions albeit i have to reverse the direction of things.

With a calm mind and vauge memories, i made it back to restaurant only to realize that i have missed the turning into the place where im headed. I finally made a U-turn after missing 2 U-turns @_@ Reached my destination at around 10.30pm.

Since the task to be done can only start after 11pm (based on user's instructions), i waltzed about in the office and met up with some old contacts whom i dealt with almost on a daily basis when i was in another department before. We chatted about the old times and a very serious incident which happened the previous day. They were still cleaning up that shit. The admin who was in charge of doing the task started the activites after 11pm and everything went smoothly, so everything just took about 40 minutes :)

I reached home just before 12am whereas usually i would be (unfortunately) dreaming away. Oh well, i suppose i will need to get used to these kind of situations again. Let's just hope my aging body can cope up with it still :p

Say Goodbye - Step 1

After some info gathering, it seems that this is much more complicated than the reverse of this process =_=. To add insult to injury or rub salt into a wound, it costs a heck of a lot more too =_=|| I suppose this is to let people think through of this decision not to mention the time it may take to complete the whole damn thing.

As if being completely empty is not enough, now i have to find ways to shelve out more stupidly and definitely not welcomed especially at times like these (yes, the economic recession). Although she has stated that she will take up half the payment BUT it will still cost me like half my salary BEFORE tax and EPF.

Clauses will definitely be put in place to protect both parties' supposed rights. Although i would supposedly benefit more from it but i think there are actually 3 losers from this outcome. SIGH, i have no words to describe. Having seen several cases of what im about to go through, i don't see how things will turn out like how i envisioned when i first made plans on children. Although i have marched on through rain and shine for more than 4 years but things got more and more heavy to shoulder especially when we have been jettisoned by someone who thinks that she had thought it through mostly i would say is for HER own good. I suppose it matters not anymore, like how i always predicted, once a person already made up their mind, they would not listen to other's logic and believe that the decision made is final and there is no 2 ways about it.

The timeframe for all this bullshit could range from 3 months to 9 months of which i may not be able to complete this wish within my stipulated timeframe. This is kind of out of my control and i did not have much knowledge prior to setting it. It matters not i guess, the result is already a foregone conclusion written before i can have any say. She may argue that i have been given ample time to turn things around but things are not as they seem (in reality) when compared to what you think MIGHT be happening.

Let the gamesjourney begin and march on, in rain, shine, thunderstorm or flood! Come what may, fall and get up i will, try and retry, give up i cannot!

I wonder ...

Since pork is non-halal and those who consume them is in a way also non-halal, i wonder how do they classify those people who consume non-halal foods and then donate their blood? :p I supposed they would argue that blood is for saving life so live-giving overrides all other things. Then again i wonder, would they cannibalize or eat those creatures which lives in 2 environments? I wonder ...

The blood thingy was brought up after i donated blood today. I asked my colleague, since we consume pork all the time hence classified as non-halal in a way, how come our blood are not classified like that? This is only my fourth time donating blood, i missed 1 session last year where i was coughing my lungs out :( Before that, i just don't see why i should do it at all, selfish? Perhaps ...

Maybe i was more worried about this :

Bruising the size of a 50c coin, not to mention the soreness

Maybe i got influenced by my colleague, who is an avid donor, *hats off to him*. It just takes me about 5-10 minutes to fill up a 450ml bag but also gives me time away from office for about 1 hour :p Registration, queuing for a seat to donate and then a little refreshment plus rest before heading back to office. The nurses got lazy i suppose and just give out unfilled gratitude certifications. It would be more precious if it were filled up but a "thank you" is more than enough from the smiling nurses after they collect our bag of blood.

Donate 50 times and you will get first class wards at government hospitals for *10 years :p I think the * like the many other T&Cs out there, means that it would be changed without prior notification =_=