Bleeding without blood

As we all know the saying, "The pen is mightier than the sword", apparently there is an even mightier weapon, the tongue. Today i got another taste of it even before the sun rose. Its not the first time but its really getting to me :( Not a way that you want to start your day with, absolutely not, especially when your main purpose everyday is to provide and care for him.

I can take this kind of abuse at night (almost every night) before going to sleep because my memory is similar to RAMs, after shutdown, its deleted and no residue will remain when i wake up again in the morning. Im too tired to take heart of the abuse hurled towards me. I may be left speechless at times but his tongue is his and that is something which i have no control over, same concept as i cannot prevent you from your own thoughts.

I understand his frustration and where he is coming from BUT i am at wit's end on how to manage it. Gentle method failed prolly due to his lack of comprehension of the situation. The hard way always backfires and blow up in my face so its best i don't try that at all unless absolutely necessary. I think its not helped by some fucking assholes who go and spoil him, another thing which i have no more control now.

His behavior was exactly the same when i hit a mental block. Not to the extent of insomnia but enough to draw your attention. Mars' rule applies to kids as well? If the problem is not overcomed then will it really be dropped like adults would? Sigh ...

My heart is stabbed over and over again with a knife which does not have to cut open the skin to pierce my heart. Demotivated and drained of spirit to shoulder on and march on.

A not so related but wonderful song which i totally love, 王菲 - 半途而廢

要不痛快快地哭個夠
要不乾脆向他低頭
別再苦苦壓抑心裡的痛
昏昏愕愕愛過又算什麼
貪圖快樂等於墮落
你說一生不是為愛而活
別搪塞藉口 到最後反反覆覆忙忙碌碌
辛辛苦苦不知道為了什麼
半途而廢 你無所謂
少了自由怎麼海闊天空 真是 自作自受自憐
半途而廢 你不後悔 義無反顧
斷了退路 還談什麼幸福 你又何苦

Please bring forward share any logical and workable bright idea. :)