Monday, May 25, 2009

Say Goodbye - Step 2

Sat down together last Saturday to explain/discuss/deliberate with the lawyer. As always, the talk about divorce should be the last resort ... blah blah blah. But hey, that fella was like my lecturers or my ex boss, keeps on yapping and refuse to let me say my piece. Also like my ex boss is that, no matter what other people say, he still thinks that his way is best way and that is the only way of seeing things. OK fine, another thick head to deal with, sheesh.

An age old question was thrown up into the air, "Who would you save when all your close relatives are drowning when the boat they were on sank?". Your spouse, your parents and your child(ren). My answer to this like i have always answered it was that i don't save anyone at all. He immediately turned to me and exclaimed that im wrong, you should save the youngest person first to the eldest. Medically and statistically, i would agree BUT im not looking from that angle. You may be able to save youngest person BUT that person may end up like Del Spooner in I, Robot and question your logics on Why was he/she saved instead of the rest? Why are the others not important? Why would you deprive me of the other people whom i love? Why Why Why??? As famous chinese quote would put it, "Both sides of the palm are also meat", both choices are neither wrong nor right but they will hurt just as much. Even my choice is a coward one, a selfish one, to most maybe cruel or illogical even. I have no answer to the above questions, everyone is equally important and if your justification is that young ones still have a long way to go and old folks have gone through the good and bad then i cannot agree with it. Statistically again, anybody may die in the next minute for whatever reasons, so i cannot agree with his justification. As deliberated here, there is no right or wrong answers, only implications of what might be from your choice(s).

What is most important to you as a parent? Definately the child's welfare. If there is a choice would you want the child to live in a not so clean place but having better people to teach it or have it live in a clean place but people who may have bad influences (smoking, gambling, illiterate). Ideally of course you want the best but in reality is that that it is not as doable. As a matter of fact, im trying to implement some changes which hopefully would make things better.

Would you want to change your "better" life now to revert back to a half dead situation? What i foresee is that from debt free i would most likely be plunged into big negativity which i never really did recovered from the first 4 years. From at least 4 happy person to maybe none which are truly happy? I don't know, i really really don't know, are these really choices? Another point to consider maybe would be the heart is no longer feeling the same feelings it had many years ago.

I have 1 week to make up my mind. From what i have analyzed, current situation is better than it would be if changes were to be made for the the "supposed better". As number 5 of Shortcircuit would put, "Innnnnput, need more input!".

Till then, Take That - Love Ain't Here Anymore

Baby don't you want me to go
So honey, why don't you beg me to stay
For love, and talk the way we used to talk
Till we both know what weve lost
Never say the words we did before
Till it was over

Love ain't here anymore
Love ain't here anymore
Its gone away, to a town called yesterday
Love ain't here anymore

Listen, oh listen, I don't wanna let go
So maybe we can change the way we feel
For love, and open up the way we did before
Now is the right time
And Im sure you'd never say the words you did before
Until you knew it was over

Love ain't here anymore
Love ain't here anymore
Its gone away, to a town called yesterday
Love ain't here anymore

And when I find a place for me to keep my sweet love
Then I will leave it there forever more, yeah
And when I find someone to share I'll never give up
I will hold you and believe that this life leads to more

Love ain't here anymore
Love ain't here anymore
Its gone away, to a town called yesterday
Love ain't here anymore

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