This is not the Goodbye in my wishlist, still a couple of months away i reckon for that. The goodbyes in this will happen in the coming days.
My dear dear friends are leaving. One, back to her new home country. Another to his forever air-conditioned country, a dream condition which he had relished for ever since i knew him. Today, i found out that another friend is applying for PR Down Under, waiting to be approved.
Its not like im losing them forever, its not like i can't call them, chat with them or even text them, its a very strange feeling of loneliness somehow. A feeling of lostlessness that seeps deep within me, as if plunging me in a new chapter of darkness.
Different friends have different impressions on me. They bring out different emotions in me, i can be open to them in different ways, they cheer me up and bring different joy which i will dearly miss. *Tears rolls down my cheeks*
One of them at the peak of our closeness, would know what my mind would think even before i could think it up. This of course had its good and bads, it means i could be read like a book, something which has not happen to me before. He bailed me out of trouble countless times, holes which i dug deep and was willing to fall in like a blind man walking around without his guide stick.
Despite the above, i would like to wish them good luck and good journey to their destinations. I miss you guys already!
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6 months ago
2 thoughts:
Leave for good! I know your mind would think "Talk is easier than do"
Whatever happen is happened, there is no turning back. Sad is gonna be long, but you can opt to stop the sadness at this point and left it there to lead a happier life to proceed further(future)
You must not bcoz of the sad thing, you mislead your path/or get lost in your way. This is gonna make your family members are worried for your future.
What i think you can do is: Lead a better life than now, do something to your weight (slimming), so that whenever "she" sees you next time, "she" could have be surprised that you are living better without her, more successful and a happier person without her to be around. The entire makeover of yourself would make her feel regrets to leave you at the time you most needed her.
p/s: do not ever let her feel proud that she leave you is her best decision
God bless u and good luck!
LOL
the ones leaving are not my lovers, though one was someone whom my heart was given to a LONG time ago.
they are my very good friends, friends whose company i will dearly miss.
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